kikis probably right

i'm a pathetic addict

the problem is i never drink *quite* enough to do something *really* stupid

at my level any other rere would probably be doing something very destructive

but i'm not afforded such luxury

instead just 10+ drinks in on a saturday :/ (now sunday)

I did drink a decade without doing anything stupid too but that just doesn't compensate the fact that last ten years are blurry, especially the time line. I did drink a Mercedes away. Also, going home early always to have a beer before sleep sucked too.

I'm happy that I quit :) I just left the bottle someday and I only drink twice a month or so with friends / neighbors. It's possible, without effort

@retoor i think my problem is that if i go completely sober, my work just takes over my life completely -> also not healthy

but maybe thats a step closer to the root of the real problem...

at the end of the day i'm actually quite happy with my life, its either 1. stress 2. stupid shit that stupid people do or 3. celebrating something

that gives way to me dranking the drank

@fullstackcircus you need a girl

@fullstackcircus Or a hobby!

@retoor always recommends a girl... be it any problem any guy has lol lmao

Also OP, don't use addiction as a way to hide your pathetic behaviour. I've seen many addicts who aren't pathetic like you. And many pathetic people who aren't addicts.

You are a pathetic clown regardless of your addiction.