People think I don't get angry easily at office. I just don't want to get angry, at least in real world.

My mind is constantly clouded with "throwing things away, smashing my computer to crumbs, telling people to go die, fuck off, punching faces, kicking butts, committing murders and nuking the whole world".

@Bitwise i work with one of those innocent and super bubbly people, and holy fuck they shit me.. How can anyone be so damn happy!!?

@Bitwise my understanding is as we grow older, we should be able to accept those ugliness of this whole "life" thing or we should practice to be able to accept. :3

I understood that concept but following it anytime soon.

There is a very good cartoon/graphic image expressing that. A vertically long image where there is like a man climbing the ladder and the area nearer to bottom is all those flowery shits and the area in middle is the true ugliness of our world and at the top is like a beautiful sky.

I have to look for that image again. 🤔

@Bitwise in my view of the world, there are, for the most part, no good or bad experiencess, just events and the way we cope and understand them.

People get so caught up in theyr own heads that they forget how to be objective about themselves, and start spiraling inside the thoughts they create about the events they experience.

This seams to be why so many feel that life is hard, or unfair.

There is no 'fair', there is no 'just', life is not picking on anyone. There is cause, there is effect, and there is action and reaction.

This might seem cold, but thinking like this, I rarely find myself depressed or need to blame life or anything else for anything.

This is really very close to happiness, more than most people think...

There are, of course, tragic events that deserve emotional energy and are natural for us as living beings, and more so as humans, but most of life should not be taken too serious.

As in the words of a great spiritual leader from my childhood: "Hakuna Matata!" :)

@Bitwise the short answer: get a challenge for yourself.

Choose something to strive for, something you don't really know how to achieve.

Put in the work, bang your head against it, get some changes...