Started playing skyrim again (Special edition on xbox one x) and fuck me does it make me feel inadequate as a game developer...

I'll never be able to make something anywhere near as gorgeous or absorbing, *sigh* why does everything I love make me hate myself

EDIT: Please save the bethesda jokes, your opinion is noted and ignored :-3

Because they're a whole company and you're one person?

@ScribeOfGoD yeah I know that haha

But still even if I had an entire team I wouldn't be able to come close

Never compete against anyone but yourself. Trying to compete with big game houses only causes anxiety and impostor syndrome.. is your game retrievable from somewhere by any chance? I'd love to try it 🙂

@Condor yeah my projects are fine haha

Just annoyed that they aren't as absorbing as I wanted

@lxmcf I actually had a conversation about a similar thing with Alice earlier.

"I actually watched a lot of Videos from other artists about this exact problem.
You seriously have to learn to think less logical regarding art and practice
That's a serious problem working against it.
Or else you will always think you can't get better if you just draw "shit" all the time
When in reality, that's literally the way every single artist started and practiced and got to their level."

So determination is one thing.. but also the fact that not a single artist starts out with the skill or resources of a Picasso 🙂
Simply put, don't strain yourself too much. If it compiles and it's halfway playable, that's an excellent achievement on its own already. Meanwhile I can only wish that I could one day build games...