I suddenly just want to retire.... Job just feels like never ending work.... Can't find time for a break... And well biggest fear in taking a vacation is the amount of work that piles up while I'm gone...

Maybe I suddenly just have burn out... But suddenly just going ah fck... What's the point of all this....

Sometimes wonder, if I didn't have parents around would I just quit and and just do whatever I want until I run out of money...

How many years that would take....

If I didn’t have children and a mortgage I would quit my job tonight.

Burn out is horrible but nobody gives a fuck about it. Someone else will be hired after you're disposed off like trash.
The job I quit about 3 years ago burned me out so bad that I stopped programming for about 1 year, I lived off of my savings and by the grace of my parents letting me chill at their place until I moved on. A lot of people don't have that luxury, I have no idea how they handle it.

@ars1 @Root I'm in a big corp, any idea is I can just goto HR n say...I need to be moved to a team that doesn't feel like a startup, that maybe is full of sr devs and more stable, mature, operates at a slower pace.

Yep. If I won the lottery my computer would be living out its days in the canal with the bicycle and shopping trolley. (not really I care about the environment and recycling). It’s not so much the work but the pressure of it and having to sell your soul fir cash. I want to sip whiskey sours and create music and see the world with a trusty camera. Maybe one day.

well... I am currently in a similar spot. cant tell what it is. I remember once mentioning it here that I couldn't do without my PC but I guess I was wrong. I keep forgetting stuff and now my heart skips a bit when the electricity is back and I realize I have no excuse not to walk back to my PC and start learning something or building something. apparently I dont enjoy coding as much as I use to. I was about to freak out when someone told me about burn out.

apparently, for the past six months or more I haven't been sleeping at night because i barely get up to three hours of electricity in the day,
I have been trying to absorb all the junk I see on the internet in the name of learning, and so many other unhealthy practices.

I am taking time off, working on simple stuffs that won't require me poring over tutorials and also tinkering with hardware and linux. I hope to get better soon

Yeah I’m moving teams, too.
From pure dev to security dev.

Good idea? Bad idea?
I don’t know, but it’s different.

Im happy for you guys, I would love to have the money to retire as a mid thirty something lol

@Root That sounds like a lot of fun! I would love to get into security, it’s like playing a game as opposed to importing framework.js and other mindless boring development crap

@d-fanelli If by playing a game you mean trying to find security vulnerabilities in other people’s code they’re committing to a sprawling 10 year old codebase I barely know, sure!

But I’m probably better at it than the current security team, so. Eh.

Sadly I’m not on the red team. Those are exclusively contracted from outside. Not really sure why.

@Root wow, good luck. Having to read 10 years of a poor codebase (I’m assuming it’s poor since it sounds like you work with mostly dumbasses) is still a game..and by game I mean crawling through a pile of diseased elephant shit as fast as you can before you drown