God why is it so hard to let go with people around, especially potential friends or partners... It could be so easy to just have fun and do the things you always think about, but then you mess it up and that somehow.. purposely.

When I mess up they say that my pc has the fault because I spend too much time in front of that. When my pc has a problem then they blame me. FML

It sucks because seemingly the only way to fix that is to expose yourself to you anxieties and learn that they are incorrect but I don't want to face my fears because I am scared of that 😣😓😒 I hate being selfconscious

@stimulate just be yourself buddy. Social anxiety is a terrible thing. Don't ever do anything or go anywhere you don't want to. If you do go somewhere, don't feel pressured to be the life and soul of the party. Just be there, and leave when you want to leave.

Do that till you're more comfortable and then you'll feel ready to engage and converse etc.