Literally begging my brain to relax so I can sleep.

I've gotten my drive and passion for coding back (Working on a project that'll be released for beta soon) but unfortunately, the sleepless nights came back with it.

It's currently 6am and I want to sleep but soon as I close my eyes, I see more features, optimizations and potential bug fixes. I have a slight migraine which is quite annoying.

Wish I could turn my brain off on command. Please make it stop 😔

I can relate

Is this mania?

@Demolishun God I hope it doesn't get to that

@Tasperen I cycle between sleeping heavy and light. Supposedly I have "bipolar 2". Which is not as bad as bipolar. I will take a generic benadryl during the slightly manic times. I think its called dyphenhydramine or something.

@Demolishun maniacs can last days with ease without sleep and gain "energy" the same time until they kinda explode. Mania is best feeling in the world at beginning

@Demolishun you can diagnose yourself with it, fine. I wish I wasn't. It comes with some not well known issues that are very painful to live with. I luckely only have mania side, not depression. But when they GET me for having a mania, they stuff me so full with drugs that I cant do anything anymore. Just had that situation one and half year ago. Lady half year was fine. They let everyone be depressed and even make you depressed if you have mania. And they love depressed people, they're harmless. Mania people, the fight it with fire. I have forced injection every month and recently got message it will be extended. No reason given. I once tried to stop this horrible medication bevause sick, sick side effects but the judge almost lwught to me. Now, I'm used to the medication and will keep it. I can't come in contact with the police for over a year or I get directly a sentence of a month

@retoor it was a doctor that diagnosed.

@jestdotty it's better than any drugs. Also, you're clearly not on drugs. It shocks people that know you, strangers do not really care. Who cares about a stranger dancing in center of supermarket or whole day running in the park. It's your environment that will take your last energy by refusing to cooperate with anything you want so you end up alone. On streets even

@Demolishun real doctor or psychiatrist or @bazmd?

@retoor real doctor, medical, not mental

@retoor Doctor feel good? lol

@Demolishun not a soul plumber