Day 29 of starving myself to death challenge. Crying a lot. I suppose my mind does its best to get rid of that mountain of trauma I have, to make the dying process more comfortable. I don't think will succeed though
it also does this weird thing that it momentarily goes full force on empathizing and feeling sorry for inanimate objects, painting the picture of said objects being slaves to humans because they don't possess enough intelligence to rebel and break free
sometimes it's not even objects but WORDS: “cans”, “bottles”, “mugs”, “bowls”, “spoons”
in five seconds, it's gone, but the pain persists, stretching into soft blur. The more you touch it, the bigger it becomes. like Jim or Jeff of kitchen nightmares said while cleaning and realizing that the fat residue only gets bigger, “I'm making a mess”
every key press of typing this feels as if the key was an overly sensitive tooth with no enamel left, and my fingers were covered in acid

I know what you need kiker, will tell later, first I have to demonstrate it to someone. It's a product I'll showcase to someone today. It's that awesome. After that, you can use it. It already helps many people every day. Especially me 😁 Again, one of the many products that didn't make me rich but on the other hand, always help me to get a well paid job. I don't make shit for nothing 😁 While I know that my portfolio site is not that representative, it's made to keep the people who are not like minded our. Only matrix fans allowed! @BordedDev go watch that movie! :p It's unacceptable :p

@retoor wtf @BordedDev hasn’t watched The Matrix?

@Lensflare fuck, did I just say that in public? It was probably his biggest secret :p it would've been mine 😁

@retoor I only watch movies with other people ;P (VoIP or IRL)

@BordedDev your mom is people, I'm sure :p

@retoor Last time I asked, she said it was too scary

@BordedDev there are movies which scare your body. And there are movies which scare your soul.
Which kind is your mum concerned about?

@Lensflare Both, she doesn't like movies that are dystopian, and she doesn't like the jump scare movies

@BordedDev I hate jump scares, too. The Matrix isn’t that kind of scary.
It’s "Shit, what if this was true" scary.

@Lensflare Yeah, she really doesn't like those

@BordedDev matrix isn't dystopian. We would rule that world. I would stay in the matrix. Fuck real world.

@kiki and now the product that will help you: https://snek.molodetz.nl -> e-mailaddress is not required / there is no confirmation.

I presented it to someone today to make certain impression. It's just an chat app to replace the original rocket chat instance. Rocket chat sucks now. This application is so lightweight and support syntax highlighting. :thumbsup: emoticons, image sharing, url analyis.

It contains around 8 bots you can ask questions too, different LLM's, from free to paid (by me :() and imagine / video generation bot.

AI is just side business of the project but it is used a lot in discussions as a biased fact checker. Also you can do very nice instructed step by step fine tune image generation. It helps you prompting. When you're done describe the image, the bot you're talking to will call the image create bot. And that one makes a picture with quality highter than OpenAI. In total 5 image generators are supported and 2 are commercial (but no the best).

sounds like projection

have you tried a different perspective for your consciousness

I had this epiphany on how projection works. either you ask what someone else sees, or you see the things your consciousness is generating but you won't accept into your body... either case maybe you should stop generating that narrative. get creative and think of something else

@retoor You're welcome to argue with the 60-year-old lady, but then you'll have to make real on the threat on standing on my doorstep ;P (preferable without the axe)

I wouldn't know about ruling it since I haven't watched the movie ;P but would love to IRL

Hah
You're so fucked

If you really mean it and it's not just another delulu scam farm misinformation that is.

Just how did you get your fucking updoots with literally insane shit. Factually spreading this shit for the love of it. As wide as your gaping arse.

Fml, that I'll be seeing that day

@scor some just upvote unique content :P And unique it is!

Your fucking cruel