What the hell is wrong with me?

It was even less than maybe 2 months ago since I loved my job, had co-workers I happily called friends, wrote code I was proud of, and felt like I had a meaning and a place in the industry. I had plans for my future and everything was great.

But this entire week felt terrible. Everything was awful.
I despised every single word of those idiots I called friends.
Their craft - our craft - is a colossal and monumental failure; A sad joke, that insults more than it entertains.

I can't bring myself to program, not even to fuck around at home...

And I have no idea what to do now.

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    It sounds like depression to me. It’ll pass. Go see a doctor.
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    Tommorow is the Blue Monday - the most depressing day in the year. Maybe your monday lenghten to the whole previous week? Keep cool, take a breath - I’m sure it’ll pass.
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    Tell us more about what happened,

    Im sure we're all been there and can help.

    Do not keep the problem all for yourself!
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    @helloworld is right. That's basically the definition of depression. Go talk to someone. There's absooutely no shame in needing some help, and it by no means needs to be long term. It's an awful feeling that no one should have to be ashamed of.
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    To me that doesn’t sound like depression at all. It sounds like you’re not satisfied anymore.
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    Sounds like you need a change of scenery and a break from work.
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    Hey mate you still alive?
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    @nam17887 yeah, not dead yet.

    Recently, I've experienced a terrible argument with one of my teammates... It was so bad that afterwards when I returned home I thought I was sick.
    Headache, stomachache, couldn't eat, couldn't drink, you name it..
    And *right after* I called my boss and told him I wouldn't make it to work the next day - I felt better.

    I told my boss yesterday that I quit..
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    Good for you. I’m sure that environment change will make you feel better :)
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    Well done mate!
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