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NoMad
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Had a mental breakdown a few days ago. Crying like it's the end of the world when computer stopped working. I was a Picasso drawing of the hysteria, basically.

My exams are getting near, I'm really not ready; yet this chick keeps asking me about ten euros I borrowed from her a year and something back when we were going to a club they asked me to go to with them... Given her persistence that I should wire her the money (no PayPal tho) I assume she's up to something super shady. Why does she need my account info for?

Anyways, being annoyed by only ten euros (in our currency, it's not much, btw. It's less than two bags of expensive chips, or 5 dozen of the cheapest eggs on the market) and not studying enough, there is also my work. I feel so incompetent that I may just resign. Like... I'm not smart enough for this project. 😢 And I'm aware of it.

Put that on the side with this uni's project, which is very "Urghhhhh" because of too many people working on the same project, some of who need to be sent back to kindergarten to learn how to cooperate with others.

And in the middle of all of that, I'm trying to stay as zen as possible until the next mental breakdown. 😑😑😐

Thank you for reading this rant.

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  • 8
    Hang in there @NoMad because it will - eventually - turn around. Just do a bank transfer and think to yourself 'i got rid of this person for 10€, thats a bargain!'
    College kifs nowadays are mostly stupid and think that CS will land them a job with no work and easy pay, which is absolutely not.

    About the meltdown, how abouttreatibg yourself to somethi g nice? Like a sauna of a massage or something. I go every two weeks to a massage salon, a clean and respectable on so no chinese massage parlor with happy ending... Point is, just relax. Sleep, do nothing, take a bath, fap furiously, whatever you need to do to relax.
  • 1
    I find help by thinking of a fact that nothing really matters. Think of all those generations before us and how small of amount people are remembered today, these everyday issues problems we tend to stress about are meaningless in a large scale of things. Once I actually grasped the meaningless of my whole life, I found peace and understood that most emotions are waste of time especially negative ones because they are not even enjoyable. Give that person 10 euros and forget about it, she has already lost your trust, which i imagine is worth more that 10 lousy euros.
  • 3
    ^ I like both of your ideas, but won't give her my bank account info. Asked her to meet me and made an excuse about my accounts having problems. The risk is less than giving her unnecessary info. She has agreed. So that's one less problem. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
  • 0
    @NoMad that's one ticket 'done' in the sprint board of life.
  • 1
    I am on the same train, working and studying for 12-16hrs a day including the weekend but... i'm doing better if I don't stress about it... failing and/or succsseeding in these stuff wont severely change your life, so cheer up :)
  • 1
    Saw this when you posted it, thought I'd commented but clearly not! In any case, just wanted to check back in and see if things were any better. Sending some good devrant feels your way, and hope things are looking up. Rant all you need 👍
  • 3
    @AlmondSauce update: exams done (let's hope I don't fail anything!) and money paid, but the rest is the same.
    Thanks for asking. 😁
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