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kiki
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That time when I ranted about wanting to commit suicide but not having enough energy to go and buy a gun.

That day in the evening, I asked my GF: "I think that the whole life is a humongous rationalization on top of biological avoidance of death".

She has an untreatable neurological disease. She told me "I found out it's a consensus among different philosophers. It absolutely is. I just prefer not to think about it".

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  • 4
    Why would you want to commit suicide? you're successful, CTO of a company, have a gf, my life is an endless stream of...nothingness, yet I'm still grateful as many people have it worse.
  • 3
    @thirdworld bipolar disorder doesn’t care about your salary :(
  • 1
    @BixelPitch it's good, but that's the catch with mental disorders — they don't care about your actions at all. If you feel worthless because of a mental disorder, no action can make you feel otherwise.
  • 0
    @BixelPitch meds absolutely don’t change who you are, except for one specific disorder — schizophrenia. Other than that, your personality flourishes when you take the correct medication that is adequate for your disorder.

    Depression brings a huge penalty on your intelligence. Correct treatment mitigates that penalty, so you can think clean and really be who you are. Anyone who denies that is just misinformed.
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    @BixelPitch I’m bipolar, and quetiapine-300 and lamotrigine are the reasons I can live at least without constant dizziness, grief and derealization. My treatment hasn’t changed my personality in the slightest. It merely set it free.
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