Maybe it was not a waste, but it wasn't pleasant either. I'm lonely, not even a few good friends after years of living here. And clearly I don't even have a good job.

@retoor I'm similar. I got here because I thought I'd hide away from the world in a small town and focus on my PhD, but the people here are horrible and I was not allowed to really use a robot. I've wasted years.

... No joke, I tear up thinking about it.

@retoor none of those. Some stories involving HR, and he basically told me "I would fire you if I could".

@Demolishun already am on mg because of sleep, at least.
Is there magnesium in gaviscon? If yes, even more so.

I also haven't been able to eat for like over a day cuz of the pain and nausea. Low sugar is a big bitch.

The biggest bitch tho, is that according to google the fact that I cannot finish a deep satisfying breath is because I've been having mini panic attacks. So I'm breathing deeper and longer and that causes lower co2 in blood which apparently messes with the head and body. I constantly feel like yawning, but the yawn never arrives. It's annoying. The current method for dealing with it is basically holding my breath in like a child. FML.

Just need to not get fired for like 2 more months AND study enough for the language exam... Kill me plz.

Contract runs out in a few months. I should apply for residency, but I need to pass the language test and that's a big deal for me. Even without residency, contract runs out and then I move to Kazakhstan or Georgia and open a coffee shop. (Language issues will persist, but hey, not my first rodeo)

Gilmore Girls reference?

As someone who **might** become a German citizen soon, I'd argue there are differences between North and South. I like Hamburg and Berlin areas better. Culture is better here up North imho. I prefer mid-Europe to Spanish and Turks as well. Both cultures are a lot more likely to abuse foreigners. Also, both are loud and really not peaceful.

Don't ask me about east Germans tho; I'm still pissy about AfD's 20% approval rate.

@Demolishun oh sure. But when the snakes fight, I'd just like to watch from a safe distance.

@retoor I was referring to the interview where Altman said "I don't think he's a happy person".

@retoor idk, I am literally three racoons in a trench coat. I don't think anyone would want that as a sugar baby. 🤔

It sucks to not be able to find peace.

I don't know how you can find it tho. But I wish you inner peace. I wish you could feel calm and content.

@retoor I rather find a rich parent.

ngl, I haven't found anyone who'd match my vibe in the long run. I guess my soulmate is either dead or in jail. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

@Demolishun good boy 😏

Now bend over so I can show you what else can hurt 😜

(I don't take responsibility for what you imagine this means 🙅)

@Demolishun 🤦🤦🤦 sexual innuendo

@netikras your bott-om.

@Lyniven I would breach the convention if only I could reach my hand through a video or audio file and smack the speaker on the head. I bet they never listened to their own fucking recordings.

@jestdotty I want a nerf gun. 😐 At least for this usecase.

@Demolishun what does that mouth do aside from weird asmr?

@electrineer I'd hate you more if you weren't so good looking 😒

Y'all have problems!

I feel like this differs between men and women. I wanna know what's womens' experience in this as well, I just genuinely don't know who's fem-presenting here and who isn't.

@lorentz gpt4 still hasn't published the exact model architecture. You can reverse engineer some stuff, but not the full training model. (Which is always more extensive than the prod model)

@kiki they all need to plan better tho!

(Plus, given the evidence Luigi isn't even the shooter, unless he can teleport)

And Luigi will be put to death for killing one psychopath. Ahhhh American justice.

@retoor what's your take on o3-mini?

Is it even worth me signing up?

Go back to your psychiatrist. It doesn't have to be this way. It will get better only if you ask for help.