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Biggest interview of my entire life is coming up on Thursday. I really need this to go well - it's more than double my current salary, at a time where I'm really starting to struggle to make ends meet. There's an actual "team", and from my interactions with them over the last four interviews, I think they're cool people. It's still a little unusual, because although there's a team or cohort of seniors that I'd be joining, every senior developer is still somewhat siloed, leading their own juniors. I'd also get to be remote 75% of the time, which I think I've realized is a "must have" benefit.

I don't know if it's coincidental or just bad timing then that I've been having episodes of pretty intense vertigo and panic attacks far more frequently than normal lately - even before I had this interview lined up. I realized recently that I must have some kind of anxiety disorder. I don't know if that's from the military, or just from being fucked up via my own missteps. But I can't keep having these attacks.

Anyone who's willing to share - I don't really have anyone to ask. How do you deal with this type of thing? I went to see a shrink last year, but he just gave me pills that replaced these issues with others.

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    No experience with vertigo, but I do have occasional anxiety attacks.

    For me I feel like I'm dying, which makes me think I'm dying, which increases the anxiety, convincing me I'm dying. To deal with that I just let myself die, and when that doesn't happen I'm good.

    Kind of a "gotta go through it" kind of deal, so the faster you get through the sooner your back to baseline.
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    @lungdart thanks for that perspective! I'll try just letting go and going through it next time one hits. Easier said than done though, because the impulse is definitely to resist it. As you said, this just makes it worse. Mine usually aren't quite the same, but I can see a parallel in that much at least.
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    Hope that helps!
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    For me at least, lifestyle is pretty much everything - did I get enough sleep? Enough water? Food? Am I eating like shit? Have I been smoking cigarettes/consuming nicotine? How long have I been staring at this screen? Have I been stressed? Clenching my jaw? etc etc

    Vertigo could be caused by blood pressure spikes, which coincide with anxiety (at least in my experience), but anxiety and stress are funny in that the mimic symptoms of other issues.

    I also deal with chronic migraines and cluster headaches so it's pretty much a coin toss on which thing is causing which symptom most days lol.

    Also, there is a strong link between neck pain/tightness and dizziness/vertigo. Something to consider
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    Meditation and supplements help.

    Finding things you enjoy … doesn’t help much. Making things better in your life, even the small things, helps a lot. Find something you’ve been meaning to do but putting off, and do it. You’ll feel much better.
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    @jestdotty I’ve been taking holy basil, dong quai, ashwaganda, and a bunch of magnesiums (a good complex). I definitely notice the difference in stress levels/response and sleep quality.
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    y'all, I think I might've got the job. Small chance maybe not, but it's looking good. fingers crossed.
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    @nosoup4u Any update? :)
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    @jestdotty Oh dear, that has me worried about ashwaganda a bit.

    The B12 helping with fatigue makes sense as most people are deficient.
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    @Root Yes, I got the job! My current employer is PISSED though, not really the reaction I was expecting. Oh well.
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