tfw you're so tired of being sick and your body betraying you you start eyeing fucking 400$ emf protection pendants

fuck I hate my life

I was in a hurry
this Asian chick grabbed me and not let me pass
I kept slinking out of her grip
she kept grabbing me again
I said "no I'm serious, I gotta go"
I pulled more violently
she fell on the floor
she pulled me down with her
she grabbed my legs
I started kicking her off
a kick to her shoulder dislocated it, but she kept going anyway
I'm trying to get up and kicking
I look back and now even her face is busted
yet she's still going at me, grabbing, pulling
what the fuck?

then the scene changes to a forest
we're in a band and trying to survive out there
by now the jig is up
encounter a person in a clearing, sledgehammer him in the face to disable him so he doesn't notice us
except that didn't do shit. his skull caved in, his bones are broken, but he's moving and moaning to try to get to you. he's not a zombie either. he's alive. looks perfectly alive. but his bones are broken and he's still moving and going. what the fuck do you do?
the bones start moving underneath his skin, he's just reorganizing and reinventing his body live
they're unkillable
the fuck you do now?

I used to have a lot of zombie dreams but what the fuck is this new shit

really? I have to use mem for this?

damn, this is pretty dope: https://engineerguy.com/white-paper...
the gift of communication for engineers

Bitcoin twitter full of gems
THEY HAVE A GARDENING SECTION TOO

it feels so dehumanizing to "talk down" to people like that though. I have to assume they're mentally lazy and emotional and basically treat them like babies... will my morality stop screaming pls. but I really need to understand limitations of others better instead of assuming they can just do everything I can do which is clearly mega stupid of me. I keep burdening people with high expectations and sounding incomprehensible
become one with the emotions. be less robot. 🙏

to be fair me thinking mental laziness, emotionality, identity self-centeredness are negative traits are coming from me. so what if mental laziness, emotionality, identity self-centeredness were virtues instead, and bam better working theory of mind
the skill of having been there, done that

when conceptually stuck, reverse your morals, I guess

why is it everybody wants to hire a head of a department all the time

like that's just super weird to me

wouldn't it make more sense to hire someone into a lower position, have them learn from head of a department, then get promoted because you know they'll head the department to your standards then?

but most posts want you to already be head of a department... and it's like, I don't know your department. what the hell happened to the last head of department? why do so many people need heads of department? why the hell are they choosing to get them from outside the company?

somehow none of this makes any sense to me
like I'm literally just so confused why people hire seniors and expect them to automatically know the way the company does things
it just literally doesn't make sense

promote your underlings? then hire more underlings to sus them out?
WHY ARE YOU HIRING SENIOR STAFF FROM OUTSIDE YOUR COMPANY, LITERALLY NOBODIES, AND GIVING THEM TONS OF AUTONOMY AND CONTROL OVER OTHERS IN YOUR COMPANY, THATS SO CONFUSING

worse yet I hear most people just lie when they apply so it's like... are you rotating irresponsible lying people through senior positions at your company over and over again, as they attrition your underlings and eventually get fired for incompetence?

WHAT IS THE STATE OF THIS ECOSYSTEM

I committing the crime of wasting time

https://youtube.com/watch/...

LOL this comment on a song about people being out to get you and you deciding to have some fun instead

AI is good at helping you solve the variable naming problem

ooo

yeah, daddy, give me some of that intuitive pseudo-neuron correlation power

wat

https://github.com/rust-lang/rust/...

I don't need to think when writing rust

that's kind of disturbing
I am gonna be prime lazy now

competitive salary
so competitive we refuse to compete by actually stating it

by this point I might just have some fun and not apply to jobs persay but just write funny blurbs to them about their ads

I think I'm finding I just don't wanna work with all these technologies

my brain is shit right now but I just open rust to tweak some little things and next thing I know I have a finished product and like 3 more ideas I could probably put in in the next 30 minutes but I didn't plan to be so productive so I'm a bit turned off frankly

I'm also not mentally tracking any of this

how dare it

I am upset

when prototyping generics just seem evil...

I could, but I should not.

it beckons =-=

i wonder if the fact it takes so long to write anything in rust means few people will write anything in rust so things will change at a snail's pace

unlike javascript

when in doubt,
write everything manually,
because even if a package exists,
it's so old and outdated,
it's not even worth fixing all the errors,
so you may as well,
grow your own APIs

it'll be faster!

how do you personally commit to things you set out to do? what keeps you going, and honest?

rust is a gateway drug to plumbing

thanks, search results

if anyhow is so good and important why isn't it part of the std

I just can't with this

I don't wanna download a bunch of unnecessary libraries just because people were lazy

lmao wat

https://yahoo.com/lifestyle/...

my tooth chipped

https://youtube.com/watch/...

the irony appears to be that JavaScript is more consistent than rust

so let's say you want to create some enums to represent some potential values in a REST JSON payload

well you can implement Display trait but that won't determine the JSON output
you can make a as_str() method and that doesn't even make sense frankly, I guess it's not even a trait even though it's everywhere in the std library? (traits being rust's version of interfaces, so you'd think they should be consistent)

I have a halfway urge to say rust was a beloved language but then the foundations' drama made everyone escape the ship, leaving behind a mess

well evidently the answer is you use the stupid annotations:
enum Lang {
#[serde(rename = "en-US")]
EnUS,
}
well then this only works in serialization with serde. way to go.

how about if I have some JSON data that starts with numbers? I have an interval field in the REST that expects things like 1m, 15m denoting time scale
well no deal
because rust doesn't want enums starting with numbers

and here I thought rust was superior with its static typing. but I am having to rename things all the way down and nothing is consistent. this would be so trivial in JavaScript. and there's only one toString() method! and no interfaces people say you should use while nobody uses them!

it's actually kind of surprising how many times programmers, who are experts in data representation, mess up coming up with data representation standards then have to reinvent them

so when you run into a data format that hasn't changed in 30 years it's like woweeee someone thought something through well for once, wtf

I feel like writing a screensaver is some kind of rite of passage

one of the screensavers is literally the masonry pyramid spinning in 3d, with a money sign behind it

I've joined a cult and this is the hazing ritual

I need to acquire food or chamomile to kick this caffeine. I've managed to get my app to run and acknowledge there's a screensaver window it may or may not be able to access (doing this in rust and all and not c, and not actually knowing c which is what all the guides / examples are for / of if you find them lol)

xscreensaver still thinks my thing is "not installed" whatever that damned means, but maybe a problem for another day

it at least runs the binary and I'm having the binary create a log file at an absolute directory to debug it

my life

ok I give up trying to make a screensaver for Linux

I don't even have anything to rant about

just everything I tried didn't work and nothing makes sense

I'm gonna find somewhere to bury my woes

this is so stupid, too. because I can just query the system if it's idle, run my app, and then ask my app to exit if there's any user input. but instead I'm trying to integrate it with the existing screensaver software. which evidently never runs my application for God knows what reason. and I'm tired of reading 100 pages hunting for the answer. where's my arch wiki page for how to make a screensaver =[

I've taken something I wrote in JavaScript with no guidance in 30 minutes including research and was 15 lines

and I rewrote it in rust essentially and it was ~400 lines (in the end...) and a week and I basically copied someone else's repo but made it shorter (lol)

this feels like coderbaiting

rust can't even do rustfmt properly

it just does things unadvertised

like reorder_impl_lines which is described as putting type and const on top of files adds new lines between fn declarations and that's not disclosed anywhere. ffs took me a while to figure it out

and chain_width should be different for fn calls and match statements. because newlining multiple fn calls makes it readable, but newlining match statements and wrapping them in {} does not / makes it ugly. there is match_arm_blocks but it still newlines random stuff awkwardly, raaghh

I thought hey so cool I can write without caring about formatting and just press Ctrl + shift + i and all done but now I'm arguing with the formatter and the settings available suck and are poorly described. please don't write a formatting documentation with no examples, wtf? And disclose everything it does, preferably with consistent language so I can search the page (some of the descriptions say new line others call a new line a break. thanks)

rust FileType should be enum

pls be consistent with your own programming language smh

I feel like the world has truly gone nuts
I hope we wake up at some point

but even these words won't make sense to anyone, because they're all words that have had their meanings rewritten... we're in a kill box, and all the signs are there, and yet we drudge along, ignoring the red flags

slowly suffocating, justifying the suffocation
but even those words have been rewritten

it feels like the stories of USSR my mom would tell me, unknowing that that wasn't how the western world worked in the 90s. Her attitude towards life makes more sense now, because that's how you'd have to act to survive in such a place. I didn't like her acting that way, but I might have to do the same one day

a friend of mine sent me some hobby drama and it reminded me of this innate fear I have that's difficult to explain and nor do I really know where it's from or how to describe it

honestly, fuck, I don't know how to describe it

because the issue is every time you do something good for the world, the world ends up vilifying you for it

I saw this when I was growing up and making mods for games, I'm seeing it now in this hobby drama to such a striking degree

this person outdid the community, became famed and god-like a figure due to their personal drive being different, and now... even the people describing the drama are editorializing them into a hated villain of the arc. I literally can't find their original posts, people just say rumoured things about them but won't link them which is super suspicious. even if they do link to a post of theirs the account is banned so I can't read the posts, the website link is 404, etc

the community quotes their backtalk to the person instead of what the person actually said and celebrates it and it's making my stomach churn

this feels like a hit job
then they make fun of this person for being "paranoid everyone is against them" um yeah you literally shit talk them, probably are making things up about them, vilifying them at literally every opportunity, trying to use cheap gotchas to feel superior... I'm starting to think this person is correct, and I want to read what they wrote instead (because of the few quotes they had actual insight into the hobby-sphere) but it seems like you've somehow scrubbed it off the internet, wtf?

I like building things but my fear is exactly this. I've done it in the past when I was little and in my experience if you build something people love, somehow it is a gateway to them mistreating you because they feel entitled to you. so why would you ever contribute to humanity if this is what happens? ever since I was a kid I wanted to keep these things to myself. fame is terrifying. does it even make sense? I can't even put it into words

it would be nice if you could do things and make humanity better but somehow by doing things you literally bring out the worst in them. and yeah, you can tank it and endure it, but it makes you ask why are you doing it if it's so evil onto them? why does this happen? it also frankly sucks, like who wants all this drama? you give people stuff and they spit in your face? that's just depressing. how are you to sleep at night, wrestling with that sort of community integration, doubting if that's your place in life, your purpose? why even? does it even make the world better, or are you making it worse by a chemical reaction of your existence combining with the masses generating vitriol fluids in the collective consciousness? it's just somehow so fucked up

white house props up "memory safe" languages

cloudflare releases all in one network connections library pingora as open source (for rust, a memory safe language)

cloudflare is sus. they were hosting that Ukranian kill-list that was routed through Langley/FBI. when contacted by multiple people, they ignored the violations and complaints to take down the website

SEE IT WAS SUS

so I guess if you can put spyware on the low level and convince everyone to move to it it'll give you an Intel advantage

cloudflare being a CDN sure would give the American gov a lot of metadata to work with

and ofc businesses just want something that works, so on we go

can option pls override or operator

this is stupid

say no to

let branch = branch.unwrap_or(config.branch.unwrap_or("something".to_string()));

say yes to

let branch = branch || config.branch || "something".to_string();