am I dead if I just want easy now

what's wrong with me

everything feels too tough

ohno, my hindsight is rose-tinted

huh figured AI was the best with JavaScript but it's been pretty subpar

it can't seem to figure out how to glue various libraries together. also keeps giving me outdated syntaxes

maybe I actually have to read the electron docs myself I guess... so lazy

https://youtube.com/watch/... 🪦

I've been in rust-land too long

maybe I'm not incapable. I hear another language mentioned and I'm like "oh that's so easy" where before I had the energy to argue that I just didn't like it. now my spirit is broken and tattered and I've yet to even finish anything of any significant size or feature-list in rust, at least not to the degree my standards would've been at somewhere else. I wasn't an incapable programmer before =-=... so maybe it's all because of this quest

imperative. imperative. spell out every insignificant detail. you can never abstract away actually duplicate logic. but you'll find you'll have to duplicate concepts in code that never needed duplication before. over and over and over again.

by this point I have the vision to see what all the operations I need done are the same no matter the way I structure my code. be it a process / operating system, a slotmaps, something linear and basic, or this events system I made up... the domain logic is all the same. I don't optimize the domain logic anymore. I just want the most basic thing to work and it's sad. it doesn't solve any problems. it just gives me new ones. to the point where I'm not doing anything fancy anymore. I'm not doing anything majestic. I just don't have the energy. I just want it to work and I can't get anything that isn't super simple to, without becoming very ugly and having lots of cringe edge cases. fuck I loved the beauty of capturing all the edge cases with a super simple line in JavaScript: it was fucking elegant.

I think everybody is just lying to themselves. I've not seen a person start and finish a rust project. I've seen them get stuck in refactoring / rewrite hells worse than every other language though. you assume it's normal but in rust it really isn't. it's so so so much worse. it feels normal but that's a lie. it's exponentially worse -- other languages maybe 2-3 rewrites (the third because you're picky). rust it's normal to be on the 6th and you've barely moved wtf. I've not seen a single person make it out. hell even established libraries are full of rot, regularly rewriting parts of themselves. he's right. they're just powered by slogans. how is this a serious language? reinvent the baseline. reinvent the baseline.

they added decorators to JavaScript ಠ_ಠ

that shit is why python made no sense to me, and why I wanted to avoid spring in java

guess my standards are zilch now though. you say jump I say how high

let's make JavaScript look like java. thanks nestjs. I guess since people are using it. the hosting options / fees for these suck. ew lol

gonna just make something stupid with it, that won't be hosted anywhere because heroku banned me ages ago for having actually useful websites

you know... I've forgotten that I've seen modern warfare gore stuff and we first worlders complain about some dumb shit. d'oh

like can't afford food? lol. just normal day elsewhere

not pretty but guess it works. idealic world they told us was fake, we're a bit corrupt, a little tortured and warped, monkeys throwing things at each other rudely... but it ain't bullets (yet?)

why does the government keep giving me terms and conditions

kind of suspicious, isn't it?

I've done it. about a decade ago a rich middle eastern co worker of mine, whom we were the greatest of friends, got on my case about how I should bitch to my ISP and whatever else to get good deals. I laughed and said that wasn't me, fully knowing this trick already. he kept at it, being fully serious in teaching me this skill cuz goddamn I'm too nice to people, people tell me all the time, I guess?

well I've done it. was so fed up and fatalistically depressed yesterday I wrote a bitching email and sent it on a "fuck this shit" whim. now I get an email back telling me how valuable I am, how invaluable all my feedback was (multiple times, and there was a lot), and evidently I'm getting escalated to management. I don't even know what I want I'm just PMSing honestly. fuck this world man

oh yeah I don't have income but need to fix my laptop. fatalism. all I can do is spend money and yet I feel miserable anyway because everything is imperfect. I swear it must be these anti dopamine pills they gave me. I'll be medicalized into homelessness I bet! IF I KEEP BITCHING WILL ALL MY PROBLEMS BE SOLVED. GUESS I'VE REACHED THE POINT WHERE THAT'S AN OPTION FOR ME NOW

readability...

if !rooms
.get(&name)
.map(|turf| if let Turf::Mine = turf { true } else { false })
.unwrap_or_default()

damned cucumbers been slowly going from 2$ to now 5$ per pack. even my crypto gains are entirely wiped out by this inflation

need a job. don't have a brain to even do a goddamned thing. may as well die I guess

the thing with getting brain issues is you realize all you've invested in yourself was for naught actually

and we always think of that as the most stable investment plan

so now what. I guess I should've invested in external stuff

software is so fragile,
hardware is too

... wetware as well

ah fuck man

you know it's true love when one of you sighs because of something communism and then you rip into communism things people believe for 30 minutes

they say get married to those with the same values as you, and political leanings

ancap wins again, ty ty ty

> It is true that there is no person who wishes to be disliked. But look at it this way: what should one do to not be disliked by anyone? There is only one answer: it is to constantly gauge other people’s feelings, while swearing loyalty to all of them. If there are ten people, one must swear loyalty to all ten. When one does that, for the time being one will have succeeded in not being disliked by anyone. But at this point, there is a great contradiction looming. One swears loyalty to all ten people out of the single-minded desire to not be disliked. This is like a politician who has fallen into populism and begun to make impossible promises and accept responsibilities that are beyond him. Naturally, his lies will come to light before long. He will lose people’s trust, and turn his own life into one of greater suffering. And, of course, the stress of continual lying has all kinds of consequences. Please grasp this point. If one is living in a such a way as to satisfy other people’s expectations, and one is entrusting one’s own life to others, that is a way of living in which one is lying to oneself, and continuing that lying to include the people around one.

the answer to everything is money

in imperative languages spaghetti code might just be the lay of the land

coffee coffee coffee coffee

know the depths of evil, or be nuts, pretend it doesn't exist, make a fool of yourself to cope with it existing until you will yourself to forget?

IMPACT

don't you want... IMPACT?!

government death by bureaucracy mirrors code death by security features

I just wanna do some basic automatic release and evidently I have to get around not one but two security features to do it. remember when everything was easy and fun and just like butter. pepperidge farm remembers

one of them was a hack. lol. so the security feature doesn't even work. they added a new feature which they didn't realize would allow someone to daisy chain the original functionality back in. sad

I literally like bash more than rust for command line tools

it's more readable

all the solutions in rust are always subpar

and it's not even the ownership stuff it's the syntax like with errors with stuff

you just can't be concise so don't even try it

write everything out imperative

using AI is the new water-cooler break. the walking around and saying hi to your co-workers time-waste. the compiling procrastination

Canada is so owned by China's climate scam the only jobs for software development in Canada are carbon credits or some green energy nonsense... sigh how is this not a dystopia already. every industry and sector is shrinking but Canada keeps pumping more subsidies into the climate scam so it's the only thing that exists now

maybe we'll economic collapse and I can retire but I wanted to get more money first just in case

macros are ugly but I guess I can get over it

my standards just keep decreasing and decreasing. maybe at some point I'll actually understand rust

problem is... macros are DECLARATIVE. so probably once I start I'll just make a macro of everything and it'll look like lisp/perl or something. variable length arguments lol yay at least that basic feature xD

I also hate typing

if I keep practicing burnout will I get burnout resistance. like level up. expertise at conquering 🤔

that's how muscles work, so?

imperative languages are dumb. why would you do it like this?

... I remember thinking programming is amazing because everything is possible in it

in rust, nothing is possible

I keep reducing the number of features to make it easier for me

but it seems that I'm losing unintended to lose functionality now even too -.-

how is it I have less code, on account of removing features, but suddenly I have more bugs?

these STRAITJACKETS

geez there's not even a working uml diagram generator for rust

you can barely fit your files on one screen goddamnit. thought it would help

VERBOSITY