looking like a psychopath might actually be a selling pitch at this rate. You'll have culture fit

ew

@awesomeest yeah the empty your thoughts thing is not what meditation is about

I hate it became a pop thing because it makes it hard to find the real stuff when that happens to items

you're not supposed to empty thoughts though just have them in the background in peripheral awareness instead of your main attention

I was also thrown off by that. even though I can quiet my thoughts over time. but it's just why would you do that. it's like a lobotomy. I have those things setup to ping for a reason

more disinfo to control the masses! *vibrates in conspiracy theorist*

@whimsical cuz they got cocky and went vs israel for a while

maduro gonna be replaced by a lady who is pro israel now

@whimsical trump seems to have been successfully owned by israel now

the maduro thing was israel. not a play. he's owned

... they classify aversion as ill-will which set me off lol. yeah saying no is ill-will. fuck you lol

it's actually the year of digital IDs according to "their" plans

@Lensflare ofc, taxes are what the government is actually after, everything else is just the sales pitch

@Lensflare if they were real friends they'd word of mouth advertise your computer repair business for real money

@Lensflare atheists will use science to bring back gene discrimination

just because you're in a different fishbowl doesn't mean the fish aren't fish

"then disable supporting the peripheral"

it is a bit of an overoptimization though

like I can see people using unintended input methods to create niche control schemes to best other gamers with if this was a competitive game but probably the game wouldn't get that big and it's probably not competitive

there was a hot guy who offered me computer help when I was a teenager but I knew more than him so I laughed at him and had to decline...

https://youtube.com/watch/...

on day 1 of the new year I craved greasy food so I went to get poutine. I've eaten poutine before so I didn't think my immune system would react badly to it, but the only place open on the day after new years was this pigslop place that sells cheap huge poutines for fat people. I bought it (and didn't tip because I forgot tipping is a thing -- plus takeout?) then got paranoid maybe they'd poison the food like in the book "100% match" I read recently. Ate it anyway. halfway through I was disgusted at the food so I threw it out

then I had burning sensation in my intestines for 2 days even though the poutine wasn't spicy. and my left side burned and was numb, head to toe, became clumsy. My nerve issues flared up wtf. then my "mania" came back (turns out post brain damage people get stuck in fight or flight -- what's the difference? doctors don't know =])... I was so terrified all the recovery I've done will disappear, so exhausted

then I slipped on my stairs, hurt my foot

lmao

- brain damage gives you psychosis and when you come out of it you go through psychosis again and that's actually a symptom of getting better
- doctors are disgusting
- you are your brain and losing your brain is a death
- we have very little control of ourselves and our proclivities. there's internal and external locus of control beliefs people have and I was always internal, and internal psychologically has better odds in life and better mental health and all that. but turns out actually we don't decide anything at all and it's all external. which thoughts pop into your head? what craving do you have, what wishes look good? what you enjoy and don't enjoy. all that you never decided. your body did. whether you can care or remember to do something for a friend or for a job or a project... it was never your choice
- people my age moved on in life and are adults now and I lost years of my life and can't adult. I feel so behind. also having to face the idea of mortality ? limited life?

I liked working holidays because it's chill during holidays and you basically have the place to yourself and nobody stresses you out

so I'd save my PTOs for stressful times when people are unpleasant and I want a vacation. Optimization ftw

(ofc then they would cancel my vacations last minute even tho I had to request them 3 months in advance... which I guess should say why I was even doing this strategy)

shake in excitement for the coming

CIA

they say tech experts often want to forgo all of tech and return back to nature

sounds like they're gonna need to pay for an infinite support contract, hum hum hum

but what are you gonna do if not doing stuff though

edit: working sucked because the people were toxic and despite you never having any bugs in 3 years you keep having to do unpaid overtime and oncalls for literally no reason cuz your manager is just neurotic and powertripping. also sitting in meetings for half the day kind of makes you want to drool your brains out

sounds AI

technically conspiracy theory was coined by the CIA to discredit the JFK assassination theories. conspiracy is people conspiring. so it's not weird science or aliens. it needs to involve a group of people agreeing to do something together

right this moment my favourite conspiracy theory is that conspiracy theory is just modern word for "heathenous thought" lol. but that's a lame answer

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conspiring: elites pushing transhumanism for peak slavery

heathenous: humans are as dumb today as they always were during other eras -- everything from religion to bile theory of medicines, etc. reddit downvoted me savagely to like -80 for this once. we really get things wrong as much now as we did in any other era though

@Wisecrack uhhh what worse outcomes

bullshit lol

kingdoms of amalur was pretty dope

I don't remember if it had stats. combat was like action packed dark souls but with vibrant colors

I don't know if it was my build so much or what. it was a lot of guessing enemy coordination so if you went to new areas you didn't know how you'd be attacked. you'd need to beware of different things

later boss fights in the game basically if I missed dodging a npc at the wrong moment I'd die in one hit (there was some invisible assassin boss). or if I missed 3 NPCs rushing me at once I insta die (some queen and her lackey plant shooting me together? the plant was off screen and if it hit me I'd be stunned... the queen had a charge up attack that was easy to dodge but if the plant hit and stunned me then I couldn't dodge her charge up. omg. or I would just be rushed by the minions in quick succession -- they did mini stuns but if they timed it just right I could be stunlocked for long periods of time. goddamn)

@YourMom divinity original sin 2 is a RPG. better choose the right dialogue options or you die! cuz it changed things in the world with the NPCs and navigating the world NPCs was the actual game

I tried to refund it but it took me like 7 hours to get off the tutorial boat before I realized I didn't like the game lol

make impossible enemies

roguelikes allow you to break the game with their mechanics. it's kind of expected

and management rewards it (if you point it out, not just accidentally because the impression management worked) =]

actually in retrospect my achievements never got me anything, even when management full well knew themselves what they were, even made memes about me around the office. so it is quite interesting that the backstabbers get rewarded. because it isn't reward based on achievements... so it must be some other proxy

other than the scant computer fundamentals the things I learned getting my degree never came up again and I just had to learn new tech on the job

fundamentals are good because you can build a model of how things work under the hood and then when stuff breaks you can debug it because you know these things

there is some merit to learning things even if they're useless: people generally build stuff the same way with the same concepts. like if you learn one programming language you're basically set for most things in all the others. but the person hiring you will be upset you have to look up to know the exact method names which to me just seems like a nitpick

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the argument for school I heard is that despite the degree being useless it's still a good filtering mechanism. because it shows you someone who will stick to something and follow through on it

I think another part is someone who will follow orders and be obedient even though they may know better. which interview tests would do

this sounds human and not AI which is a little concerning