@YourMom damnit wish I didn't watch that last night. made me feel awful. and I keep thinking about it. depression fuel

thank you for your service

cost cutting procedures lead to less reliability over time

@Lensflare sounds interesting

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I have decided because I am fucked language-wise because I speak English and Quebec discriminates against the English by law, and I have job PTSD and a giant job gap and my brain is fogged up by the illness I got to the point I can barely function much less make code to the quality I did before I got sick...

that my best bet is to learn a game engine and make games and maybe then I could not starve to death. so been learning Godot for 3 days now. wish me luck I guess. as I have erratic emotions and thoughts because post-brain damage that happens and you grief your old personality and etc lol

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what do people misunderstand? hmm they seem to pick something random to "understand" in some weird way that just shows their projection. it's never consistent towards me, but consistent to the primary culture group they belong to. so I never feel like they misunderstand me, more like they misunderstand themselves I guess if there's misunderstanding to be had?

ewww, french

could make friends at your job and have them take you with them I guess

I had one former co worker try to take me to a c# job. another time I went to a dungeons and dragons game for my first time and the dungeon master offer I work at their web shop without even knowing what I did (which was pretty light on front end lol)

granted I didn't accept either of those for various reasons but still. when I rejected the c# position the guy thought it was me thinking I couldn't do it because it was a new language, and he was like "bah you'll learn it" (I actually did c# in school and it's not much different from java, I just didn't like it and didn't really understand "careers" at the time)

idk nobody ever cared about my marks. wish they did cuz my GPA equivalent was 120% tehe (people kept failing and the teachers kept curving the marks)

I also really gotta wonder about being good at school really not reflecting being good at life. I wonder if learning to be good at school ends up a disability in life

Mark Carney was friends with Epstein so Canada I guess

we also have some wild corpo rich people pedo rings up here apparently and lots of missing kids nobody wants to go look for apparently

backend js doesn't change much

people are still using express even tho koajs came out like 8 years ago

who is they even

AI seems to take out all the interesting parts of a text and just make it really boring reductive stuff

I want reverse AI summaries. just the interesting parts

people seem so bad at their jobs idk why I can't just have one of theirs

being rejected and gaslit by healthcare professionals as they view me without standing and belittle me. and then later some people took me to the hospital (even though I was looking for a place to sleep...) and suddenly I get "full service" and like 10 people looking at me and a diagnosis for an expensive disease (bullshit). uhhuh.

seems to me people just do the opposite of what you ask them all the time. where's the respect in that?

estrogen does add elasticity

@YourMom pretty sure he's in the spirit of bill gates' book about how to lie with statistics

he seems to advocate for social manipulation and tries to do quite a bit of it in his book imo

I just use it as a faster Google search

it hallucinates too much and needs too much handholding

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I had AI write simple demo things and those still needed testing and tweaks. like stuff there's a dozen GitHub repos for

opus was pretty good though. but nobody would use it because it's massively expensive and capped. and even it has limits. at some point you run out of context window. but it made for a great philosophical back and fourth for a couple hours before it degraded. wouldn't be enough for an app but enough to figure out a semi-complex architecture or feature

for what it's worth I always thought you had a great attitude so it's funny. you were always joking and shit and seemed quite chill

what I get from this is this isn't normal org behaviour. that gives me hope

also cheers. some people calling themselves my "friends" (and have since ditched me because I wasn't into the mental health club) dropped me off at a mental ward and they gave me anti psychotics which made me depressed. I kept asking to be removed from them but the psychiatrist kept playing mindgames on me. eventually I just quit on my own despite the fear mongering about quitting yourself and I'm _still_ fucking depressed from this shit. I need a job and I can barely bring myself to make food, much less be able to code. I stopped coding in the entirety and I'm surprised if a day goes by where I'm not crying at least 2 hours. l. o. l.

the world is a fucked up place

you'd think this would give money to passion projects but in reality it leads to companies rejecting people unless they're doing open source so then open source / passion projects enshittify

it was written in old books so it must be true

IT'S NOT JUST X, ITS ALSO Y-IER

so well thought out

here I thought it was deference over everything

cloud infrastructure fees era

lots of people have the same exact name

it is unknown how a person is represented inside "government". social insurance / social security numbers seem to be relevant even though when they were made it was explicitly said they shouldn't be used for authentication, but now they serve as a sort of password only you're supposed to know (except you have to give it to your employer lol, and MLMs and scam jobs exist so make that make sense)

@CaptainRant oooh now we're thinking with portals

ok but how do I feed my kids

idk any of those things but competence was never why I got in trouble at jobs lol

critical thinking doesn't work when the foundation upon which you think reality operates were myths fed to you. a common tactic I see amongst smart manipulative people (my mother for example) is they know to give you the axioms so that you reach the conclusion they want you to. this method is extremely effective on "free thinking" people (and leads to people thinking the idea is totally their own). often developers will use this tactic with difficult clients that seem to "want everything to be their idea, change things just for the sake of changing them or feeling important"

listening to diverse opinions also doesn't matter. if everything you have access to is garbage you're just nihilistically swimming in brainrot. welcome to current era. I spent a long time in this (in school and society, before internet even) and it was quite miserable, and is one the pillars that evaporates faith in humanity. algo brainrot selection era now to really make it worse

the way they gatekeep higher knowledge that could be weaponry is you have to pass the ass-kissing rituals first to get into higher institutions

because chatgpt has no barrier to entry it can't just "tell this information to just anyone"

authority belief is a loyalty test to the regime, and once you pass you go into the inner circle for more and more knowledge. but not before then