@atheist no. demisexual/asexual so it does nothing for me basically

also TIL women are whores

no I was curious and also I like emotions. but turns out he just pretended to be listening to my music and never did (and later he raged out in the car at me during Christmas when I was playing a song he supposedly liked...). also he was a narcissistic clout-chaser. I was curious why everyone always liked people like that. got to find out that yes my sense for who is a narc is actually on point lol

doesn't help he fed me a few songs and they became part of my library and I don't know which ones they are now so I get disgusted what if it's one of his... or a bunch of my songs sound like ones he did play so I now dislike them

seriously who lies to someone about music they're into. it seems so trivial

@12bitfloat awww she's kinda helping the gender war

damn that shit is dumb. I thought it would pass but it only got worse. so sad

I'm reminded of weird deaf person porn I have encountered

they make weird noises

this is advanced kinks now

I don't mind it as long as I get more money

unfortunately there was no more money and only mounting disrespect

and then when I asked for money they had the audacity to act disrespected! whoa!

ask it to be "real"

or to be a new York mobster or something

but it honestly doesn't make its cadence any less annoying

I need a song about someone pretending to bond with you over music but having used it all as a con-lie for the basis of literally asking you out for marriage and shit now...

@CaptainRant well def don't choose my path

I can't even work now because of my experiences

and I'm a fucking ancap that watched gore for funsies as a child lmao

@devJs I did earthing a few times during etheric and it did help. up until I cursed my earthing area with astral parasite babies lmao

I did fix the issue later when I realized what it was...

but haven't been back since over there

and I met something bad at the nearby park that was probably part of some cosmic war or something. something passed through and cleaned out all the crazy people's curses at the nearby church

I'm hearing people have astral weapons. could've been useful. one night I had suddenly become an angel with armor, and it was realer than real. the energy on me wasn't mine in retrospect. so somebody gave me that suit. but I didn't have a weapon and didn't understand what was going on. sigh

but yeah if I just shapeshift into the wyvern everything fucks off, so. but such a wimp thing to be doing!

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you think I could use earthing energy on the samskara? it just makes me feel cool and relaxed. reiki might be better. it's crusted in there and dunno if I want it gone

@devJs been doing reiki healing

oddly helpful

however yeah not everything gets taken out

I don't have enough awareness to know what stuff is, I just have a vague sense

... think I used to be a black lightening controlling wyvern which lived in a crystal cave somewhere in the astral... and a wizard bound me for 300 years because I was too ragey. oh goddamnit lmao. I have issues telling what are memories or actual events sometimes. so annoying. thought the binding and wizards were now but turns out it was just a memory

but the wyvern helps... if I turn into it nothing can touch me

but I think this life I'm meant to be human. what an interesting revelation!

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yeah I've been doing a lot of nervous system exercising to release blocked energy and stuff. also did EDMR on myself after/during my etheric trip because that shit was so fucking traumatic holy fuck. thankfully it worked (mostly, there's just some small remnants now -- wyvern protects tho. I think I entered a war...)

oh I've seen that before

@atheist oooh that's a good point

music does help heal the soul. someone ruined music for me tho and I had stopped listening

@atheist I think if I extricate my hurts somewhere else I only hurt myself further. I have to deal with it myself cuz of trust issues and paranoia. I expect everybody to let me down at best, or be an idiot or malicious

some people feel like doggies to me but that's because they have a penchant for loyalty

you kind of give me a scrappy coyote vibe though

and I just took betaine HCL which the FDA banned for ages and only unbanned recently... the ban's justification? "it wasn't deemed effective". what's it matter if you consider something effective? 🙄

those vaccines weren't. they increased transmission and length of illness and death actually. unless you count that as efficacy, tehe. not to mention IGG4.

whatever that means 🤔

why

is this a church

are we your priest

I mixed some vinegared sushi rice with smoked lobster recently and fuuuuuck was that good

I don't know if I've ever eaten lobster before but whatever that was was amazing

@tosensei neuroscience rats being recorded as they move in 3d space is a torus which doesn't make sense. your brain seems to be an encryption algorithm. your memory isn't in there. it's just a receiver

I'm surprised this book figured it out. a friend of mine years ago wanted to write an AI so we both got into it. well I was modeling my AI after human consciousness. so I was listening to a bunch of neuroscience stuff from a dude from Moscow. and what they were finding in brains wouldn't make sense if the data was stored in them. it would make perfect sense if the brain, specifically brain plasticity, determined how well your brain received information from something else. it's so cool, really

anyway I have brain issues so. and meditation and psychedelics helps people's physical brains noticably. so regardless of your cynicism you can't deny that data

@cafecortado oh I had something related for that. apparently electricity helps

I have brain issues and dementia... the EGG they gave me felt AMAZING. and I regained my nerves from it. I wanna be zapped more. but AI and doctors insist EEGs don't do anything. these fucking hack idiots. every time

https://youtube.com/watch/...

@tosensei your level of stupidity and ignorance keeps showing itself. alas. nothing can be done I guess

take your own advice though. maybe you'll be whole

@antigermanist I just woke up to Mexicans using a gasoline powered weed wacker on plants Canadians just pull out with their hands

the cloud of gasoline smoke wafted into my bedroom

I've never felt so assaulted before

I ended up leaving my apartment. and closing the window cuz they're intermittently doing it again. and turning an air filter on to try to get the cloud out

I've been incensing the place for months. they're ruining my fucking jive wtf

wtf was wrong with using your hands?! I thought Mexicans were supposed to be good workers. am so insulted. they ruined my meditative state and astral projection attempts. hate

@alexanderwang I'm fat?!

feed me more food then you can insult. 120 lb for 5'8" 🥺, help feed the poor pls

sushi pls

uhh do you know how to fix a power generator or how the internet works

@Lensflare @antigermanist cheese: https://youtube.com/watch/...

you could say this about anything

@SidTheITGuy this is what Indians were made for!

@devJs yeah whatever grounding the energetic charge means. I don't think I want to "eat" their energy, if that makes sense. feels gross to me. their problems

it's not that I feel bad. I just use it as a weapon. I saw a baddie, I can now do the same baddie (but also better)

I think most people can make shields but I can't. I'm always absorbing whatever is around me

I know it's their problem but I still feel it. I'm never confused about that. thing is you're sitting there taking it. I rather not

and ofc I'm interested in low vibrational people. I'm not just ignorant for the sake of my own comfort. that would feel terrible to me. I wouldn't be able to respect myself if I just decided to be ignorant. now that would haunt me, and I'd have nobody to blame but myself on top of it!

@Chewbanacas idk they should just email me the pertinent info and cut out the buzzwords

@kiki I don't see the contradiction

government takes rights from some people and gives them to others. it doesn't make anything and it has to walk a thin line or it falls into tyranny

currently in western countries we are extremely in a bad place. it looks pre-dictatorships

we complain about race but that's not the issue. the government doesn't care about race. it cares that you have money and it wants it. it cares that you have free thoughts and that should be illegal. it wants to impose a religion. and the citizens see that it isn't racism or sexism or whatever other invented -ism so are totally fine with it, not understanding the actual mechanics behind all these things

we will have an economic collapse. many will be harassed and go to prison for frivolous things. many others will be conned into going to war. the parasites on top are running out of money and they want all your stuff, not realizing they're cannibalizing their own societies beyond replenishment. say "sustainable"

@antigermanist um I don't know

physical > etheric > astral > mental > casual

Buddha realm is past that and I haven't hit it yet so I don't know what's there. and then there's like 6 more after that

trying to enter astral rn and control my mental. I used to see the casual perfectly fine but I wasn't aware of the buddhic realm that comes after that, or maybe I was and just didn't know it

think I figured out why I got "sick" though. sigh. hatred for these fuckers.