how do I make my actively hostile body behave and do what I want it to do?

@retoor uhhh I think drugs will make it worse, as ppl who are high can't quite control themselves sometimes

@kiki people who are sober are repressed and control themselves too much :P

@kiki love you kiki have a nice day <3

@retoor here's the list of drugs I took:

- morphine, at the age of 15, because no post-op anesthesia was available. Horrible withdrawal symptoms, but I pushed through

- a bit of alcohol. didn't do anything to me

- a lot of nicotine. I'm clean for almost a year now

- very sketchy synthetic cannabinoid like thing. brown, looked like dried poop. awful experience, my first one with thc + god knows what

- real weed. no effect

- 100 micrograms of LSD. Just gave me derealization, but I liked it

@retoor I only did LSD once, just like that cannabinoid thing and weed. All of them just once

I will definitely try DMT-assisted therapy for my PTSD. LSD though… trying it was a childhood dream for me. I think I'll do the larger dose next time. Overall, if you ever find me doing drugs, there is 99% chance they will be psychedelics. Not even nicotine or caffeine lol, and especially not weed

@retoor have you tried DMT?

@retoor my favorite drug is the LSD analog that doesn't have psychedelic effect but allow man to have several orgasms in a row

@retoor iboga is the one to quit drugz. You do it, you're sober forever and happy in connection with the elements or something