Man, the effort it takes to build a solid foundation in Computer Science. 3 years absolute minimum, 5 years recommended, 10 years so you can start relaxing more because you can rely on your foundation.

Helps if it truly interests you and breathe bitches and bytes.

@retoor Rofl. Well, not every single little aspect or skill interests me. Don't give me programming for old systems as a job. As with anything, things become unpleasant when you turn a hobby or talent into a job.

@CaptainRant things lose their love if you're coerced into doing them

@jestdotty That's right.

@CaptainRant Give me one of those sounds fun AF

@jestdotty The keyword you have struck; fear indeed. Be great at this and deliver inhuman amounts of work in short time so client is big fucking smiling. lol. Or else they put you off for review. Yes, that's fear alright.

You're right, disconnecting from the baggage is the key thing to do to regain yourself.

Normal.. hm, let me pull up from my experiences... First job.. pressure, coercion. Second job, same thing. Third job was a bit more relaxed but in the end still same thing. Fourth job disguised coercion. lol.

It's hard to put a finger on it because while they aren't forcing you, they're getting upset if you don't keep up with the rhythm and if you don't learn fast enough for their desires, like a rabbit.

One thing I learned is that they will all smile in your face and have a nice watercooler chat.. up until the point you're not good enough for them and then they put you on review, which is the worst experience you could ever have at a job.

@jestdotty Like big, pointless meetings? lol

@jestdotty Blargh, sounds like typical industry. Unfortunately there are assholes everywhere.