Still looking for my first full-time dev role. After being endlessly rejected from every dev job I've applied for, it starts to eat away at your confidence. Makes me wonder if I'm not as competent as I believe I am. :/

Fortunately, I landed a coding interview with Google! It is my dream job to work at Google, so the fact that they even acknowledged me & my skillset makes me so happy and reaffirms my belief in my capabilities. :D

It's pretty odd, that after applying to 20+ open Google positions relevant to my skill level & location and often with references included, then having been rejected from all of them, that I finally got a chance with them when one of their recruiters found me on LinkedIn and liked what she saw. I cleared the screening call, and made it to the first coding interview.

Of course, even with all the interview prep I've done, it was all practically for naught since they caught me off guard with a crazy conceptual problem anyway. (Well, actually, was I 'caught off guard' if I was already expecting to be caught off guard? o.0) I struggled heavily in the first half of the interview, but found my footing towards the end. So I knew I screwed up and that it was highly unlikely for me to get the job.

Nonetheless, Google had the decency to reject me not via an automated email, but through an actual direct phone call with my recruiter. (The cruelty of the automated application rejection system in our society is a whole rant of its own, for another time.) My recruiter told me that they felt I wasn't ready but they liked what they saw, so they will be revisiting me in exactly a year to reconsider me.

To know that I wasn't fully rejected, and that my dream company Google sees real potential in me, is highly reassuring. It means I'm not a lost cause; I simply need to keep looking. Google will want me more strongly once I have the experience that comes from a fresh grad's first full-time job.

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    I might be wrong, but I reconsidered Google being my dream job. My cousin graduated from MIT and he's working up in MS and I did asked him why didn't he accept going into Google and he said they pay is piss poor compared to other tech companies because so many people want to go there.
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    @JKyll I'll take lesser pay for the sick benefits they offer. Imagine how pleasantly simple and streamlined your life will become if you can delegate away all your menial activities.
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    Sounds like you dodged a bullet.
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    Don't you ever make the assumption that because you fail often means you're not capable or unskilled, because you put effort into continuing in the research it's already a sign of endurance/engagement that many others I saw failing.
    And also it's useless to think about your self worthiness from companies perception of you, it's an easy ticket for feeling bad for free.
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    @okstar You definitely have the right outlook. But human nature will often get in the way regardless and make one feel this way. It's hard to feel confident when you literally have a 0% success rate (in finding a job).
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    @Koolstr I had my 0% chance periods too and I was starting feeling your same way, and to stop that feeling I just rid myself off of such feeling.
    Human nature, for me, is a 3rd party modular library rather than a core one, though 🤔
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    @okstar Nice willpower. Seems like a core library to me though :/
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