lol

just eating cheese, chugging coffee, and rolling with some hard techno

as I take this stupid prescribed anti dopamine pill

hahaha

(cheese has tyrosine which makes dopamine, coffee spikes dopamine, and obviously exciting things that hyper focus you are dopamine)

such a useless pill. modern society. already on the lowest dose

soon gonna eat cake. sugar gives dopamine spikes too

and I'm told don't smoke weed... which also gives dopamine spikes (but reduces inflammation) and had calmed my issues instead of exacerbating them, but noooo ignore me

I can't even with society. doctors don't believe in inflammation. only drugs we can't patent are bad mmkay. literally know nothing about chemistry, nutrition, but will tell you arrogantly and with superiority with no discussion how you should be living your life. such a prison. every time. Idiocracy healthcare buttons

With haldol even xtc doesn't work, tested multiple times. That's extreme if you consider how hard the xtc normally is. Raising dopemine is almost impossible but at certain moment you used to live with it and it's the new normal and it goes wrong to quit with it in 70% of cases when used for long and also, from long users, 40% gets a disease making spontaneous movements and stuff. There's many other drugs I would choose instead of it. But for what it's worth it's super effective but also it is like removing the wheel from a car to prevent accidents. It works, but the car kinda sucks now.

@whimsical it makes me sleep like a normal person and I think even if I go off it now I get sleepy at night which is wild

I changed the time I took it at and got mild mania for 2 weeks so the rebound will be real

it stops your receptors from eating the dopamine. so dopamine goes up but nothing eats it. not the worst cuz dopamine is a great anti oxidant, so it should heal some stuff actually

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I haven't tried drugs on it but I bet I could burst through with enough of them since I'm taking such a low dose. I can feel music making me happy and manic (but it's under my control). coffee might be more adrenaline and cortisol

I wonder why they gave you the elite medication for anti psychotics directly. As this page says, it's the best but only desbried in 4% of cases. That's with a reason huh. It's so fucking weird. See https://perplexity.ai/search/... do some stats.

@whimsical elite?

I got something called abilify. they probably just give it to everyone who shows up there

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lmao haldol gives erectile dysfunction

I don't believe it.

abilify is supposed to stabilize dopamine so if it's too low it makes it higher. lies I'm so fucking bored. it does blunt the highs of stuff though

and it's supposed to fix depression and anxiety. this shit GAVE me anxiety. I keep having bouts of depression wtf lol, like my most common mood is depression after I take it and then I go and take naps?

bulllshiiit. it BLOCKS serotonin receptors not makes them more sensitive. so how is it supposed to improve depression and anxiety. people get depression and anxiety if they lack serotonin grrrrr. fucking medical fraud

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oh look AI admits in "some people" it causes anxiety and depression. I've never had fucking either before, at least not past a transient moment... these are straight up persistent moods now

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probably they gave it to me cuz I said I wasn't suicidal and think that shit is dumb. that's fucking gross. I say I'm immune so you weaken me in that regard and then I get low self esteem due to it -.-

and they tell you nothing about any of this -.-

@jestdotty they did not tell me a out the movement issues. I couldn't stand still or sit in a car. Went totally crazy.

Edit: afaik you can't get resistant for it.

@whimsical resistant?

@jestdotty maybe bad translation where it's a good word to use in this case. I mean that it keeps being effective. Normally you get used to things, haldol not. You learn to live with it and you adapt. It was also used for young people until 18 with behavior issues. Imagine that. It slows you down but you don't notice because you are slowed down and you accept it because you became a slowpoke. It's a trap.

@whimsical ooooh tolerance

yeah this thing keeps giving me anxiety and self esteem issues. I thought I could maybe fight them off but I actually can't even though I'm self aware of them now. geez

@jestdotty self esteem for sure. I'm not even sure why they did give you those. With what complaint did you go there?

@whimsical indeed

cuz I was freaking out. couldn't sleep. they told me they were sleeping pills. they are not. they literally lied which is disgusting