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jestdotty
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am I dead if I just want easy now

what's wrong with me

everything feels too tough

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  • 3
    It's just the unhappy pills :P They're not for helping you, but the environment around you :P The actually describe it also to kids until 18 years that have extreme behavior problems. So, you can thank them for the compliment :P Also to people to calm down when they die actually.
  • 2
    I'd think it's human nature to want easy. Selecting path of least resistance.

    Sure - it's !the case _all_ the time, but for the most part, yeah.
  • 1
    @retoor I went off them and going through withdrawal a week now

    in retrospect they made me morbidly depressed and I didn't even know how badly til I stopped

    I felt claustrophobic by misery I couldn't escape or stop and then went cold turkey. yeah reflecting on my personality coming back nobody should be on these things

    I'm an optimistic person with a sense of humor. they gave me anxiety which eventually numbed me to everything and then I figured out what "lack of meaning" meant (only now because it just came back wtf). every moment of every day I was ashamed and I've never felt shame so I didn't even have a concept of it but now I understand what it was. wtf man. erased my personality and installed some other one?

    ---

    kicker is the rebound mania is nothing like what the doctors kept saying was mania on me -.-... so I should've never been on them. I hate doctors. so incompetent
  • 0
    @jestdotty I feel you, I need to do write up for the new job about the tech I've used and looking at an old repo that used a combination of pubsub, node, python, go, multiple services using terminal parameters all running in kubernetes. And I know I would have loved to just dig in before, enjoying the challenge, but now after the burnout I got from the current client all I want to do is close the repo and have been procrastinating for almost the whole day on going through it. There is also another project I have barely any memory of, which is unusual for me, I can jog my memory by reading through the code, though.

    Getting a good amount of rest and having someone around that is excited about what you're doing does help
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    No, you're probably just overstimulated like most of us.

    I think you may have been through too much and your mind and body want some rest, which may be why everything feels tough as the burnout may have set in. Maybe lacking vitamin D. Of course I'm not a doctor, but just my thoughts.

    I think.. you may have to reconnect with yourself and with nature.
  • 0
    @CaptainRant Not sure who you're responding to, but a burnout leaves both psychological and often physical issues just "sunshine and chill" aren't going to directly help with that
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    @BordedDev Yes, I have some knowledge on that. I think our minds and bodies are connected with nature and perhaps a decrease in stress can have better psychosomatic effects than we would think.

    As I stated in my disclaimer: I'm not a doctor, so my advice was only to be taken with a grain of salt as I was only trying to help, even if I didn't know the full history.
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    @CaptainRant Nature is very important, I'd say core to humans. I did read/hear some studies on it where companies that made sure nature was visible reduced stress related issue by 10% or something.

    It can help a bit, but once the burnout has happened, it's kinda inconsequential or can even make it worse if you force it as an active activity (vs just opening the curtain). Most important is to get away from what's stressing you and change the mental state that caused you to be in that situation.
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    @BordedDev Indeed, indeed.
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