Bipolar disorder means that you can code for 14 hours straight, sleep for 4 hours and feel refreshed ready for another round. You can make art and you can express your thoughts in creative, kinda alien ways.

But here are tradeoffs that make bipolar disorder a disease:
- everyone around you is an enemy
- they’re all acting together to harm you
- nobody understands you
- they all make fun of you
- if I say what I mean, nobody will understand me. I’ll scare them
- I’m extremely aggressive towards everything: people, things, situations, problems. Computer lags so I scream, smash it, throw it out of the window and buy a new overpriced one
- constant uncertainty about whether am I acting right or not

Time for some Seroquel. Kiss your long nights anything goodbye though.

@SortOfTested no no no no no no no no neuroleptics please. I rather be an active maniac than a vegetable

I'm genuinely worried knowing that some of the things apply to me.

one of the reasons I am grateful for my kind of person. I can be really calm in a storm

@Ranchonyx Yeah I have the same. The bad stuff doesn't apply to me but the first part entirely does 😅

I don't think this classifies as a bipolar.. yes, first part sounds like the manic phase, but all the rest..sounds more like a normal 'dev things' (or schizophrenia if anything)..

With bipolar you usually go from manic to depression phase..but in depression phase you don't give a shit about pretty much anything & everything...so no throwing computer out..you'd be just meh and go to sleep or catatonic mode..

Anyhow, don't go on any meds unless you really need them for basic functioning. They are meant to help you get back on track, but in the long run, you need to work on yourself & try to get off them or at least minimise the dose.. Detect patterns that get you in the weird moods & try to avoid them and/or learn to cope with it..

Not every mental health problem (or lack of discipline) classifies as a disorder.. too many people are proclaming to have this shit or that so they can justify their acts.. :/ // not relating to you, this just poped up in my head because here a lot of kids get classified as having adhd & other 'disorders' which gives them special treatment in school (&life) just so they can get away with not studying and doing things in life... I know a lot that actually have it, but I also know a shittone of more who are just abusing this and it makes me angry, because of the 'fakes, noone takes the real cases seriously..

@sladuled do you have a disorder? Do you think you ready to argue with my official diagnosis?

I agree i guess

@Nanos stop. I remember your situation.

@uyouthe I do.. & no, I don't want to argue. Just stating it seems off to me.. might be that our contries define things differently, that's all.

@Nanos the point you made about huge guys is so accurate. I'm really short and I have been confronted once over something so irrelevant.

well.... I dont have the strength to throw punches so I just went for his eyes. self defense was my excuse

@rooter I agree about humankind not being able to cure anything related to our brain, but there is a new Japanese research that ties bipolar disorder to the latent HHV6 and promises a cure

@rooter bro

@Nanos I remember you saying this already. Nice strategy though. My intelligence dropped significantly after neuroleptics

before getting a diagnosis, consider if maybe it's because you are surrounded by assholes.

for me, bipolar means that i can code for 18hours straight, sleep for 6, code 18 hours straight again, then go to sleep, sleep for 14 hours, wake up, and for the next week or two i'm unable to even get out of bed, let alone work on something.

rinse, repeat, with varying lengths of those phases.

@Midnight-shcode need to get out more. and this is coming from someone with actual agoraphobia.

you game? what do you play? what do you do in your free time?

@Midnight-shcode I felt this comment in my b o n e s

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