I was shitting for so long that my legs became numb. These companies and rejections have filled me up so much with bullshit that i cant shit enough of it out of my asshole quickly enough

This is defeatism talking. Stop applying for jobs for couple months before it takes a hold.

I somehow guessed it was you. Lol.

@aviophile Rather than stop applying I think he should change his approach and come up with a somewhat coherent strategy.
@b2plane Instead of applying for everything that you lay your eyes on try to focus on companies that need your skillset. That ought to help.

@soberGhost that's what I've been doing

@b2plane ok I see. What must be the issue then? Do you try to get feedback on what you could improve on when they decline ?

@soberGhost they reject me because i havent worked for 3+ years in a company before. They dont care about my projects or past work freelance clients. They dont care about my computer science degree. They dont care about my knowledge on interviews. They still prefer someone who already worked in a company for years.

"We need someone more senior with experience"

@b2plane Weirdly enough I am on the same position. CS degree, experience less than 3 years. My first job was around 500USD (which is ok for my country's standard). I left it after 6~8 months for freelancing.
I applied to remote positions mostly on LinkedIn and got that same answer.
You have to know that companies have standards and some recruiters are dead set on finding the dev that exactly match what they need. At least they replied but try to get more feedback if possible. And keep notes of the profile they are looking for, you might be able to apply again at a later point.
So don't let it get to you, just skill up, do projects and do work you can find as a freelancer.
If you are really good though you can try talent agencies. I recommend Turing.com. I've started their vetting process and it's ok. Am too lazy to study algorithms in depth so I haven't had the balls to setup an interview with them to just fail.

I am still working as a freelancer but I recently did an interview for a local company which I nailed. Might start working for them if they come up w/ a good proposition.