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@Louma and that is why you need to talk with others with am open mind so you can show your 2d image to others and learn about theirs. I see. Thank you! :)

@Louma I am reading back all the comments ( including mine ) up to this point and I really feel bad. I am sorry for my impulsiveness and jumping into conclusions. @Mrcheese I am really sorry for putting you through this.

I realise that my behaviour is not helping the problem.

I would like to thank you all for making me see myself as you see me.

@Mrcheese Thank you for explaining and please forgive me for misunderstanding what you tried to say. Years and years of people telling you that you were stupid really makes people salty ( @Louma ) and it is really hard to talk about this topic without feelings getting in the way.

And yes I agree that a 50/50 qouta is a bad idea, but on the other hand I know that women need more encouragement to overcome everything they encountered up this point of their lives.

I had a passion of taking things apart and putting them back together since I was a toddler. I always wanted to fix things even if they weren't broken. I had this curiosity inside me to find out how things worked.

That is the very same curiosity that was trampled by every adult who ever told me to go and play with my dolls and give up on being an engineer. Girls aren't good at math. What was I thinking!?

And that is exactly what I did. I became an obedient little girl who felt that she wasn't loved if she did what she wanted.

Greatest mistake I ever made. I was 23 when I finally took the courage to go against everything I was ever told.

Now I am studying to be a web dev. I have never been more satisfied with my life before.

My only regret is that I listened to people who told me to stay away from boyish​ things like engineering and programming.
And I know that this isn't only me.

People who don't (care) to understand the problem make me sad.

@starless Thank you. I'll do just that. Maybe doing a week-long course would help me further my knowledge and to clear my head. There is too much going on right now.
I'll also talk to our PM. He seems very supportive and without his help I would have never gotten this far.
Thank you for your kindness and support. :)

@darkcode I managed multiple cms-es. Sitecore and WordPress mainly. One day our former lead dev decided that he'd teach me. He also had no formal education.
First I learned to modify CSS for specific Sitecore pages. Because it has its own version control I couldn't mess it up. Then we went on to WordPress. It has been a year since.
I got more and more task to challenge myself and learn.
Now I am comfortable with editing and creating new PHP files and writing JavaScript.
Please don't get it the wrong way. I don't call myself a dev. I do realise that I still have a long way to go. And whenever I encounter an issue greater than me I always ticket one of our devs.
My rant was supposed to be about my frustration for being limited when I genuinely want to learn. My coworkers are amazing devs and their work inspires me. That is why it makes me so angry that they don't let me learn from them.
I know that it'll take me years but I want to be like them. But they don't want me to be one of them.

@darkcode @billgates I was hired as a content manager and I slowly transition into being a developer. That is why I had no knowledge about our tools when I got hired.

@starless They do not have a manager who can hold them responsible. It is one of our written rules that our developers should only answer to our executive director who is always busy somewhere else.

@wolt no, no documentation. No guides, nothing.

@starless We have an overladen PM who is treated as a secretary by my coworkers. And another PM trainee who is considered a softie and noone gives weight to his words.
So basically I have noone to turn to.
Today I tried to speak with our lead dev, but he wouldn't even look at me. I mean literally he wouldn't acknowledge me being there.

@siljamicke Funny thing is that it wasn't a windows live account. She literally changed her username to her email address without linking any accounts to it.

@DirtyBit Aaaww that's sweet! I missed him too! 💙

@brainlessdev thank you, i kinda felt like a burden when i asked for a review today, but now i know it was the best thing i could do 😃

@stylefish Thank you for your kind words :)

@qbalsdon Thank you, I have bookmarked the link you shared. I feel i might have to reread it from time to time 😃

@mt3o Thank you I will definitely keep this in mind 😃

@nayna52 Thank you, it's nice to know that this feeling is normal 😊

I have arrhythmia since birth and have lost a job because of it (I fainted and my boss did not believe I had a heart disease). I tend to faint once every two months so when I got my current job I knew that I had to inform them so they wouldn't freak out when it happens. It wasn't easy to tell my PM but he was understanding. He understands that I can't take much stress and working after hours could be dangerous for me. I have been working there for 1.5 years and during this time I have fainted 4 times. My PM partly blames himself although it wasn't his fault, it's just something that happens to me. He just asked me to alwasy tell him if I was feeling unwell because he is responsible for me.
I hope this helps :)
Best of luck to you