i got mad and said i quit and now I'm having a panic attack

It's probably best to try to calm down once your initial panic attack is over and remember that you didn't do anything official yet.

Depending on the situation that made you say this and what the working climate usually is like, it might be wise to just admit that you were just mad and said something you didn't mean.

It might help to explain what exactly made you feel that way to hopefully make them understand a bit.

hmmm maybe I should've gotten mad

I tried to quit a company several times but then they're like, sum monnehhh? Very stupid reason for staying, money enough that time

@retoor thankfully they won't even give me that, it's out of their hands. our team doesn't have the budget

@darksideofyay sounds corporate

@retoor stereotypically so

@Alice it started as a conversation about me being fed up, actually.
i already said i wanted to be transferred so they know. what really made me mad was the talk about "oh everywhere is this bad, careful not to regret it", like I'm a kid that never had another job.

like, we don't have proper work tools, no servers, the right drivers, IDE, no dominion, SSL etc. i could go on and on. it's truly bad, so I'm full of this bs

they told me everywhere is that bad except it was my first job so then I wanted to off myself instead of living life for 40-60 more years like that

huh you know maybe I should be quite hate-filled

@darksideofyay so... are we "fuck those assholes!" or are we "we will work this out"?

I will cheer for whichever way you want to go.

@Demolishun i think it's more the first part

@darksideofyay then FUCK THOSE ASSHOLES!!!

@darksideofyay I wish you the courage to pursue a better, different future or the patience to remain and improve where you are.

You will find something better! Keep trying. All the best

Ok but now violence too just to make sure you don’t regret anything

I've thought about quitting several times... but then i realise the truth... typically, i intentionally put myself in that situation.

i only really have had 2 types of work:

1. Specialised 'Consulting'- always my terms|contracts(vast reasons to quit) plenty of requests so im very picky to accept.

2. businesses i created\own\etc.

quit? 1. just do, 2. cant, itd be admitting self-defeat.

I haven't done many consulting gigs recently... definitely turned down enough that apparently there's a small secretive group of mostly execs from companies ive consulted for, quite the variety of industries and countries, and a few that i rejected offers from (primarily due to 'too boring, here's half the answer, bye' or a simple 'too busy maybe later') that were speculating on why.
top suspicions incl: helped the wrong people and fled the country (or changed identity), retired (im 32) or some big company finally figured out my 'price' for exclusive full-time consulting.

tbh it's kinda creepy

i fail at normal employment.

i really tried back at 19... since i worked online translating and minor consulting from exactly 18.
i was concerned I'd miss out on the 'shitty 1st job experience' (remember, autistic af). applied to at least a dozen places... handicapped so couldn't be on my feet much, and even so, wouldn't have gone as shitty as fast food. the first 7 to contact back- 3 calls, 4 interviews, all told me "you're overqualified" (even after the 1st 2, removing all i could)...

#8- sears portrait studio- manager was older and seemed quite under-enthused, hired me.

had to do ~25hrs of video training (i manipulated it to think i was watching whilst playing runescape) ~9hrs in she got busy and told me to handle a customer (over 2yrs, monthly, spending exact the 8$ coupon)... sold over $300.

next day\wk corporate had written off the mandatory vids, few days later i was told to report to another store that day. Arrived to find out I was teaching a class on sales.