Coding privately:
"Ah... :typing:, click, having a look... run... edit... draw on paper.. think about it.. edit.. recompile.."

Coding at work:
"type as fast as possible and make a jumbled mess of everything and in the end deliver something that barely runs and meets requirements, only to have tons of headache from every company layer later, mandated by themselves"

Prepare meeting, prepare meeting, prepare meeting.

why did I make messes of my personal work and not my job work

oh yeah i thought I'd be paid more than minimum wage and somebody would care about how good I was instead of entirely ignoring everything I did til I had "suddenly didn't show up" (hint, it was not sudden but fully communicated with multiple people, though they weren't taking me seriously)

silly me

@jestdotty maybe you simply weren't as good as you think and that‘s why they didn’t take you seriously?
Knowing you from devrant, for me it sounds plausible.

@jestdotty I understand.

@Lensflare ye totally that's it cuz when I "suddenly didn't show up" I afterwards gained myth-like status in the company since people actually bothered to look at my work then

and the company sought me out years later giving me x3 the salary while pandering like schoolgirls to me during the hire

ofc then I got landed underneath a dysfunctional lead dev who got upset at me for reasons she couldn't ever communicate, and management was too lazy and incompetent to bother once again

the CEO memed I was perfect before I left, but ofc nobody fixes what isn't broken you know what I mean. if you're having a great time maybe you're quite good at milking the "I'm broken and suck at my job so it's passive aggressive behaviour therefore you should actually give me a raise" game, which is actually how the field operates because they follow the SCIENCE religion and the SCIENCE of occupational psychology says to do this, nvm actually knowing your employees to any degree

rude of u tho

haha @lensflare know it all totally defeated.

I would say it depends on the place, some places have good vibe some others just don't but yeah maybe generally the vibe is very average, what is better is to have a Phd degree in computer science or being Bjarne Stroustrup for ex.

@jestdotty I was almost willing to take you seriously until you pulled your "SCIENCE" bullshit out of your ass again.

@afaIk ohh, look who’s trying to not look like a pathetic little shit! Adorable.

@Lensflare it's humour, you german

I'm dating a german and he's basically a comedian, every room he enters he gets everyone to laugh through literally an improv of random fun and I literally don't even know how he does it, AND HE THINKS I HAVE A GREAT SENSE OF HUMOUR but I'm so fascinated how the hell does he know to be so funny. I don't find what he's joking about to be funny, and I got no clue why people find him so funny. he thinks I'm hilarious though, WHICH IS JUST HOW DOES ANY OF THIS WORK THEN

actually my most favourite comedian on youtube is also german

so idk man I feel like calling you german to excuse your lack of humour can't be accurate

@Lensflare to help your autism

if the "tone" of a person suddenly shifts, it means they're joking. they sound rational one minute and then it seems like they're acting like a different person a second later (ei, frogs gay)

shouting is also a good indicator. shouting or excessive excitement is used for dramatic effect. in text it's capitalizing words or adding ! at the end of sentences

it's ok though I encounter people even IRL who can't read these signals... granted they were literally always autistic

2/3rd of people can't read tone from text conversations though, even in our modern era of primarily texting

@jestdotty Toxic workplaces... no fun.

@jestdotty written text is very bad for conveying emotion and tone. That’s why emoticons were invented.
It’s funny how you think that everyone should instantly see your shift in tone in a freaking chat text message. And someone failing at it must obviously be autistic.

Now, I don’t take offense at being called autistic. Maybe I am autistic after all.
Also I don’t really care if you see me as funny or or not and if you see me as having a good sense of humor or not.

You just desperately seek to find something to not to deal with what I say by telling to yourself that you were just joking. Haha, I just have no humor, that‘s why my objections to your bullshit are not valid!
It’s really not too far away from the classic "haha I was just joking" response from someone caught in saying something really stupid and not wanting to admit they were serious.

@jestdotty > '(...) ofc then I got landed underneath a dysfunctional lead dev who got upset at me for reasons she couldn't ever communicate (...)'.

Have you been hitting on her [hubby|bf|romantic_interest] ? That would definitely explain it.

/* OK... I am joking... mostly. Somebody does that you're justified in your animosity towards them, but I'm fairly sure you weren't doing any of that... Mostly sure... Could be wrong, though. */

> 'written text is very bad for conveying emotion and tone.'.

Yup... very true.

@CaptainRant toxic workplaces could be perfectly fun

but I find the issue is the "teachers"

as a kid if I was outside school & someone was a shit I can play the game. but in school the teachers want you to talk to them instead of defending yourself. thing is, if you talk to them you lose, & if you defend yourself you lose

if management didnt defend the toxic people it would be fine. but the problem is management will literally defend them & "side with them". if there wasnt management there wouldnt be this problem

I guess the issue is I never learned how to subvert authority. authority is always a laughably bad judge of character, too. to be honest I dont even think theyre trying to judge. they just hate you for bringing anything up. ok so then should I defend myself? wilder yet is management is blaming me for... someone else taking things out on me? I didnt even retaliate. but they kept acting like I was "asking for it". wtf. yeah cuz if youre mistreated it's "for a reason". gross

@Lensflare wow, tats mean! Apologize!

@whimsical anyone who knows me will tell you that I‘m one of the nicest people they know. I get along with almost anyone. And I‘m never being mean to someone who doesn’t deserve it.

@Lensflare emoticons are definitely super autistic. why do you think everyone cringes when they're used lol

it's like how when you explain a joke it can't be funny anymore (sort of)

emotions only matter when they're subtle and accidentally displayed. otherwise it's just perception management, marketing, etc

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I don't think everyone should see my tone shift in text. I just told you 2/3rd of people are not text-capable despite experience. perhaps you had a question here and instead went with an embarrassing assumption? 🤷

I said nothing about finding you funny or your sense of humour. I wanna volunteer whether I find you funny or not for clarity's sake but you don't have the mental capability to understand it anyway lol

why would I "not want to deal with what you say"? what did you even say? all you said was your opinion. why would I take your opinion so seriously that it would hurt me and I would do "psychological denial because it would hurt too much" as you're implying

@Lensflare people retroactively pretend they were joking to avoid rejection. you only have rejection for me so why would I want to hide myself so I can maintain acceptance, if I have no acceptance to begin with? I clearly was not moved by the rejection... so trying to con acceptance out of you would not be a motivation for me

nor do social sanctions work on me. I don't know if you are capable of noticing. I actually act _against_ social sanctions. as soon as you reveal that you socially sanction something, I do more of that thing and every time I do it in an "excited" manner. I'm literally making a joke of you. trolling you. do you get it? you lose your mind and I laugh. which actually does make you funny to me! (not of your own volition though, which is why that's a funny joke statement prior, EXAGGERATED EXCITEMENT)

easy way to troll me is to socially sanction me. I'll always react with reactance. you'd be playing on my psychological weakness and know me so well 🥺, for once lol

@D-4got10-01 ikr I wondered if it's romantic. the director I worked with before; he wasn't a bad looking guy. maybe she saw him treating me well & wanted to put a wedge in that. I did wonder about that

thing is they were both Indian. I really think people should accept racism & it will lead to more world peace... like there's no reason for her to think that Id want to date an Indian guy. even though he was very good looking & a solid partner. he was also married. I helped him plan his honeymoon first time we worked together

but he didn't hit on me or has any interest in me I'm 100% sure & I wouldn't ever have any interest in him. my genetics likes white guys because I'm white. it still surprises me we don't count that as racist. but come on. it's at least accepted...

idiots. idiots everywhere though. nobody thinks about anything. they just react irrationally and emotionally all the time. I'm the weirdo that writes too much!

... she was ALSO married, but she didn't seem ethical

@jestdotty yeah I‘m constantly wondering if you are just trolling or if you are actually that stupid. Sometimes it looks like the one, sometimes like the other. Well it turns out it’s both. Thanks for clarifying.

Part of why I write what I do is not directly to tell you something but to let others see how much of a gaslighting piece of shot you are.
Kind of like a public service.

And because you will probably delete your comment again to erase evidence, here is a short summary of what you wrote in the last comment:

jestdotty admitted that she is trolling me because it amuses her. Then also some bullshit accusations which are probably projections.

@jestdotty Could also be that she was just jealous of you, thus wanted to bring you down to her level. Truly, how would we know w/o peeking inside her head. But we can't.

> 'my genetics likes white guys because I'm white. it still surprises me we don't count that as racist.'.

On that one, I'm positive it is !racism, but preference. You don't _hate_ the person. You just don't see them as potential partners, which is fine.

I did let AI analyze this thread:

Both parties prioritize scoring rhetorical points, interpreting motives uncharitably, and engaging in meta-commentary (on tone, autism, trolling, etc.) instead of sticking to the original topic. The result is a classic internet argument where ego and emotional reactivity overshadow reason. Elements like jestdotty's trolling admission and Lensflare's repeated personal barbs erode any claim to moral high ground.

@whimsical I almost laughed out loud after reading "moral high ground" 🤣