I know I have a problem with asking for help. I'm aware it's a problem, I want to solve it, and I'm trying, but this is easier said than done.

In my defense however, the issues I'd need to ask for help with are completely absurd. We have a shared Feature environment with a shared database. A push to any feature branch auto-applies migrations to this database, so it's full of broken script output. Tests are supposed to use this database. We do not have full rights to edit this database so we can't try and fix the issues. Instead, the database is reset from production once a week, discarding all changes including anything we deliberately put there for testing. I asked who broke the database and if they could fix it please, somebody responded with freeform text roughly describing the fixes _I should apply to fix HIS TEAM'S mess_, which didn't include any technical identifiers and referred to tables and columns exclusively via vague approximate names.

He then posted a screenshot of an e-mail from about a month ago in which HE complained to MY team lead about how "some people" keep breaking the database, which contained no examples and no suggestions, but was sent immediately after the first time this year that we actually properly broke the shared database. By that point they were past their 10th broken migration that warranted an early restore.