Food. So much food last night!

@SidTheITGuy eww cheating is so unsexy

@Lensflare Alright, it doesn't apply to every scenario ;)

Though here, while it might look stupid, I probably have a cleaner connection than with the 40 yo TAE box.

@Demolishun Yes, SVDSL / 35b

Closeup after cleaning up the extra wires

The story behind this:

There was some electrical work being done in my flat and they seemed to think I don't need my telephone connection anymore... Because they just cut the cable and removed the box.

Is it their job to fix it? Sure.
Do I want to wait for them? Hell no!

Now I could put a TAE (or RJ45) box to wire it properly, but then I need to spend money on the parts and tools and wait for it to arrive. So I just made a Frankenstein connection directly from the telephone cable to the modem by sacrificing an old patch cable:
a to 4, b to 5, boom — 270000/42000 kbps sync.

I've had a Radeon HD 6800 a loooong time ago

(sorry but I couldn't resist)

Seems like you need a good fuck

@netikras iperf3 is king, but sometimes I just wanna open a website from whatever device and be done, without unpacking the big boy tools.

For no-bullshit testing I prefer https://librespeed.org

(I am not affiliated.)

Great. Yes. No for one, maybe for another.

I'm not really interested in changing my job, so I can afford to imagine this is an opinionated mess without a clear structure, with the boss being unhappy about you doing things differently and no processes in place. Depends a lot on the attitude of the CEO though – if you have free reigns to do things differently and you're okay without solid team structure, it could also be fun.

Me:

@Ranchonyx
Thank you.

Re attachment issues: They currently cause me a lot of pain. For me, the underlying issue is probably low self esteem and trying to fill that with external validation. I see the patterns and how I'm really making myself miserable, but that realization alone is not enough. *sigh* Human emotions are complex.

On the other hand, I know that there will be better days. Maybe tomorrow, maybe not, but probably sooner than my anxious mind word think.

++ because I resonate with your problem somewhat – I've got depression, social anxiety, low self worth, attachment issues and some this' and that's for way too many years now..

And it's great that you are improving. Keep at it!

I'm not sure it's better on the other end. Where there's no anger, but only darkness. And tinnitus!

@lorentz pretzel dependencies .. hmm ..

Just fyi, you can probably still recover the original lineage with the reflog.

@kiki True, it's not really patching the driver itself. But I guess identifying the issue, failing to find a newer driver, finding similar cards are using the same driver but have a newer version available in the Windows Update catalog, downloading that and manually changing the driver package's config files does go a bit beyond "install".

On Linux, that card just works..

@kiki It's a ~2013ish Laptop which got a fresh install of Windows 10 LTSC. To be fair, it probably wasn't sold with Win10. Not sure about the exact card but I could check the next time when I visit my parents.

The problem was that Windows update supplied a buggy driver for this WiFi card. There is, however, a newer driver available for a some related cards. So you need to download the driver for the other card, add the identifiers for this card to the .INF (iirc) file and manually install this driver. No more WiFi drops, yay!

tbh I've had more and worse "fuck off" situations on Windows. From slightly buggy drivers that you need to patch yourself* to shit being broken beyond repair.

* if you can find the forgotten knowledge of an ancient civilization buried deep in some obscure forums – otherwise you just gotta live with your WiFi card randomly going to "fuck off" mode

Now I'm not saying it's necessarily better on Linux, but at least if someone there finds a fix, it could be fixed upstream.

@kiki Spot on. I only recently learned to open up thanks to some amazing new friends I've made and I made a ton of progress, but I also know that I very likely will have bad times again in my life.

That said, I'm not looking for a partner right now, because I need to work through a lot of stuff before I'm ready to have a healthy relationship.

@kiki Oh I see, that's a very different thing. I'd call that rather wanting them to have a positive mindset.

As someone with a (not fully resolved) history of depression and anxiety, I know it's very hard on the partner and how it can also drag them down.

@kiki
> The aura of "I have everything in life figured out"

gg, I'm out 😂

(Has anyone ever figured everything out?)

Somehow I knew this shitpost could only be from the one and only..

@netikras It's kinda funny that your response is, while appropriate, also generic enough to be in line with the two spambot comments above.

@donkulator More like handwork

All I can see is a lot of ... engagement

@b2plane If you're being honest about the status of your work, that may as well be a planning (i.e. management) issue.