After one year of learning to code I am still not sure if I am an adequate programmer or a really effective Google user...

You can be both! Those options aren't mutually exclusive.

Well, can you code something useful from scratch without consulting Google or other resources?

I’m working on a project with someone, my first realass project, and any time we talk about what we need to get done I have to suppress the urge to say “idk how to do any of this I’m just googling things” every 5 minutes, cause I’m pretty sure she’s doing the same thing lol...

Someone claimed you're a programmer after 10k lines of code. You get there quite fast 8)

3 years as a programmer and still wondering the same as you, lol