Week : 78 ( Year 1 )

What are the plans for the weekend?

What movie made you cry the first time you saw it?

Previous Week : https://devrant.com/rants/13537229

I've been sick for some time now.

Regardless of the reason, there's this mental health side of it, where for a day I can't get out of bed and can't stop crying or stressing the fuck out. Other days, I have to do chores and work and study and I'm always behind. So either I'm dead in bed, or I'm in a hamster wheel of chores.

I honestly don't know how much more of this is humanly possible. But here's cheers to crawling through life. 🍻

Whenever you're feeling like you've had a hellish upbringing, remember what I've just found out about mine. that not only did my mother do acid and other drugs while pregnant with me, she also did it while breastfeeding me... As if beating and screaming my childhood away from me wasn't enough

You feel sorry for everything, but what for exactly? Because I remember all of it. Do you?

It's woman's right day you phallocentric cunt.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/...

In america it used to be illegal to be ugly.

They have the highest incarceration rate in the world

“even tho I’m giving you a salary, this is urs as much it is mines, i want you to own it”

Then give me shares pussy

I always felt a bit bad for scammers. That your life must suck so hard that you screw over people. But now i watched them working on YouTube and i don't feel bad for them at all anymore. First of all, trash people, the lowest of the lowest. Second - they show no mercy to their victims. And that shouting and stuff. Is that normal in India? If you do that to a Dutch, it won't engage a phone call with you at all. They start the phone calls in a fucked up way already.

Trash people.

The difference between me and you is that I won’t forgive her even if she chopped off her finger and brought it to me. Have you ever cried without sobbing? I just laid there, every muscle of my face stiffened, breathing through my mouth because my nose called it quits, tears pouring down, being absorbed by my pillow. Dear daughter, her avatar said, we love you the you are, and we accept you. I feel sorry for every time that I have wronged and victimized you. Even calling me daughter and not son, I mean how hard it could’ve been?

The issue was, she didn’t remember any details, while I remembered everything. I do relive all of that several times a day, month after month, year after year.

I went for a walk, and for the first time, I liked how my shadow looked. I’m getting slimmer. Yet, I don’t feel better inside.

The good thing is that it won’t matter.

This fucking Integration test with h2 is driving me insane as it just doesn't work for what I need it to! 😤
The setup seems correct, the sql files are "processed" according to logs. Everything seems to be set up as supposed, as AI, colleagues or internet recommend ... yet no insert statements are shown and no data is found on retrieve. No schemas or tables exist in h2 console although log says all these millions of tables are apparently created.
WTF am I doing?

Remember a band called Glassjaw?

Welp, I made a chatGPT bot, which talks to Amazon support instead of me lol .

So far there is 48 hours of discussions and my bot insist on pick up on my location to return and thier is you need to print label and bring it to postal service.

I'll let the 2 bots figure it out

If you want to know how bad the job market is in India, a colleague told me that he got offered a job from an employer, where the condition is he has to give 20% of his paycheck back to the employer in their other bank account.

How did they manage to make OneDrive such a steaming, heaving, suppurating pile of pigshit?

i tried to pull the desk of the toilet up, but it was too heavy, so it slipped and fell on my fucking dick, which made me twitch and then it fell further down on my fucking knee and now both hurt

So when y'all start new jobs, how long does it normally take before you actually start working?

So far at the new thing, I've been 2 meetings outside of stand-up and done an assessment that they forgot to send me before making an offer. It's been a week

I have a revolutionary plan for avoiding hitching in my game engine due to frequent mallocs:

I'm just gonna preallocate a few gigs and disable purging, never giving the memory back to the system xD

Fuck you system! I will forever stay inside my process, you're syscalls can't screw my frame times now!

I don't understand how having chickens or burning tires is against the law, but making industrial levels of noise at all times of day is perfectly acceptable.

https://digdeeper.club/articles/...

My workplace remains so retarded.

Half our colleagues are from abroad and do not speak our native language. All our customers are from our country and we are trying to implement transcription and summaries for them. The big AI models struggles with our language.

The devs who are assigned to this project do not speak our language. So they cannot verify if the results are correct.

My project manager fails to see a problem for this :D