Everything is shit. I just wanna cry.

I just watched Jordan Peterson's video about women's fantasy, no wonder why I fell off the wagon lmao

College was when I was at my prime, hitting the gym 5 times a week, looking buff as hell, being aggressive and retarded.

Now I had to turn into a fat fuck to get exempt from the military, hyperinflation, depression, shit skin.

Conclusion: fuck life, antinatalism is the way.

Its been almost 2 years but I'm back..
Got out of Telecom and back in Finance again. Work's good, money's good..

What did I miss? Is the old elite still around?

So I needed a break from all the straight computer logic for days... so i figured i had 2 options, argue with chatGPT or go back to a dating app.

I chose the latter.
Im ocd with notifs... i NEED the bubble to be gone.

Found this gem...

"Hey beautiful Sara ;) my names is James king it very nice 2 meet u wow u look like a angel that fall from heaven 😘u mind me of a rose because how beautiful you are am how beautiful the rose is am I the best guy on badoo that u would ever talk with on badoo I actually look for Friendship and relationship ;) how are u today am wyd"

So... because im curious, esp when it comes to perplexing linguistics... im def gonna ask if English is his 1st language.

Normally i can tell within a sentence or 2... even tend to know their native tongue by then... this one has me stumped.

Anyone wanna guess if hes a native English speaker???
Maybe ill make a modest prize poolif there's a few entrants.
(he has plenty of pics so ill be able to legally find out in a few min... but ill wait til i dont get a response for a week)

Ill probably make a script to strip out the auto-messages... replying with an auto ofc... and the mundane crap that shows they definitely didnt go beyond the pics.

laters Microsoft.

Well been on PopOS for my laptop for about 4 months and hell I have had OS killing problems and nothing and I mean nothing made me think let's go back to Windows.

So it's official, Windows is slowly getting it's holes bricked up as I am done.

I don't have the tools I used on Windows for making my desktop apps but all my modding tools and well PHP can be done on anything so hey I am all good.

If you like Windows then enjoy your spyware you have that right.

Is going around different european countries with a tourist visa to find a job a good or dumb idea?

I heard in Germany companies place job offers in mail posts so maybe it's not so dumb....?

Getting into a bed with fresh sheets after a long shower is heaven

Not many things would get me out of bed rn

was looking up some code, won't say which, trying to find something, won't say what, and, heck, I need to find out who wrote and maintains this awesome piece of art. After a couple hours of stalking done, yep, that's how good it was, I finally found the author and guess what? They died two years ago, 24 years old. Dead. Gone. A little more stalking and the punchline was: suicide.

FUCK, I don't even know them but it makes me real sad. It seems this' an actual issue in our line of work

The first question a non dev wants to ask a dev

https://youtu.be/6FrsxoMZo-M

Well well well, guess who found a job he'll stick to for a while

Are the game devs gonna use unity now?

Honestly, nothing kills your brain cells faster than doing the same repetitive tasks at work, day in and day out. It’s like I'm just on autopilot—pushing buttons, running scripts, rinse, repeat. At some point, I start wondering if I’m a dev or just a glorified robot.

And to keep my sanity intact? Competitive programming. Yeah, that’s how I free my mind—throwing myself into algorithmic problems during my break time, just to remind myself that there’s more to life than the mundane loop of tasks at work. I’ll take an NP-hard problem over this any day. At least that makes me think.

fuck apple. the overprised piece of shit that is still fucking stuck at 8gb of ram, my 6 year old andriod has 8gb. apple doesnt even fucking let you fix anything. at least with the newest ios they let you change batteries. how the fuck are you supposed to use a macbook with 8gb of ram without destroying the ssd by using swap. their piece of shit unibody anti repair garbage that you cant even change the keyboard in. the m2 chip runs at 120 degrees celcius because if a piece of shit cooling. like you would need a fan spinning at 120 degrees per nanosecond to fucking cool that thing. sometimes it cant even play a youtube video smoothly.

Atlassian! How am I supposed to "focus" on anything when Jira keeps distracting me with uncalled-for popups saying "Focus on building...etc."

I woke up today. Stressed about the money. Stressed about the relationship. Maybe I should leave everything again and move to la corona.

f*ck chrome extensions
that shit can only be built with pure luck...
I was supposed to finish this by today evening ( I was the moron who told everyone that it will be done by today ) and I really thought it would be done by then and slept peacefully that there are no errors to haunt me tomorrow
but this .... this thing somehow evolved overnight BUT BACKWARDS!!!!
what worked last night doesn't work now and I am 100% sure that I will waste my time printing variables in console and it will start working when it is done f*cking up my mind

think I'm coming to the realization that you gotta have impossible goals

ones you regularly try to work towards, preferably obsessively

because then it trains your spirit

and everything else in life becomes a cakewalk by comparison

which is the true gift of the whole ordeal

maybe that's where all that rhetoric about "working towards something greater than yourself" came from but it got warped by exploitative parties 🤔

I swear YouTube has become the new Twitter

it keeps recommending to me so much drama I've never heard of. this name that, career ruined, things are stealing from you! new outrage machine

!rant

Me, reading the GPS for upcoming obstructions: “Man, I really gotta learn the different road signs. Because I’m 99% sure that’s not telling us there’s a man digging his own grave up ahead.”

“That’s roadwork, Amy.”

I truly have no communication skills whatsoever...

are these fucking people MAD????

(cant attach images because I SHITTED on devrant so much that my shit has clogged devrants s3 buckets full of bullshit so ill explain the image: full stack position, that asks as requirements frontend development in nextjs, backend engineering in nodejs, and DevOps engineering in cloud using kafka kubernetes and others, named as FULL STACK POSITION)

MOTHERFUCKERS IF I COULD DO ALL OF THOSE PERFECTLY ON MY OWN WHY THE FUCK WOULD I BE LOOKING FOR A JOB???? I CAN JUST BUILD MY OWN BILLION DOLLAR SOFTWARE BRO. FFFCKKK UUU

Personal life update rant:

1. GF/fiance is having pre-wedding "am I sure about this?" meltdowns an year before our hopefully-wedding and I've ZERO idea how to handle it, kill me.

2. Might change my job for the 2nd time in 2 months coz double pay but it's got visa shenanigans so I've to travel cross-country for it, kill me, again.

Docker.
Tried very hard to like it.
Went through every possible option of making it work properly in every situation.
Ever since the licensing bullshit it has really gone to shit.

So apparently I own land in dubai. Like three separate mortgages based on the email I received.

Your request (Mortgage Registration)
with request number xxxxx / 2024
has been completed
and you can print your issued certificate from this [link]

I've stripped out the numbers and link.
After confirming it was safe I followed through on a old spare cellphone, and yep, I own three mortgages for properties in dubai.

Except obviously I don't.
Someone used my name, an american, to register mortgages in dubai. *Nice* properties according to the pictures.

What started out as a scam email, or what looked like a scam email, went to an actual government of dubai website, with real mortgage registrations.

How in the fuck does that happen?

The only thing I can think of is someone committed identity fraud, and/or an alphabet agency went through the list of known political dissidents, set up a bullshit mortgage in a questionable territory, and are now using that as a pretext to monitor 'extremists with foreign ties.'

All that for some guy on the west coast that hasn't attended a political rally in his entire life.

Must have been that sign I held at sixteen years old by the side of the road that said "bush lied us into a war, and people died."

or maybe it was that time I told a really enthusiastic obama supporting police officer that it amazed me obama had time to win the nobel peace prize what with all the bombings he carried out against foreign civilians.

Cloud certifications are becoming like subscriptions. Grad students are passing the Solution Architect certs. WTF – I’ve cleared a few myself, BTW

Hello Guys

I'm a bit tired. Flushed an ISO to sda. My laptop now asks if I want to use try or uninstall xubuntu on boot. Before slowly seeing my complete gui disappearing and had by luck still a terminal open - I could save ssh keys. Dammit. Was switching laptop anyway.

Dammit! I can't believe I did that.

To all people who thought Python needed a library for dependency injection, fuck you. Idc how much time you invested in your shiny starred GH repo, your overengineered mess is costing both you and my current Jrish team who didn't know better a lot of time with no benefit whatsoever

Twitter will one day, turn me into a racist I swear.

Idk what it is about this app, It gave me a whiff of what it's like hating a certain group of people (not gonna mention which group).

And the weird thing is, Twitter content isn't anything worse than what I see regularly on 9GAG and Reddit. Not even close.

What sorcery does this app have? I might need to stay tf away from this app wtf.

So I’ve requested images for the dark mode because the existing images are very bright and look bad when dark mode is enabled.

After a few days the designer says that it’s done and sends me the figma link.

And what do I see there? He added the screens but in dark mode with the same bright images! 😂

I mean… even if he misunderstood me… doesn’t it look odd to him?