Need my vaccine receipt to go to a wedding. And I’m in line to get the pdf document. On the one hand this is some cool implementation for a load balancer, on the other hand this so strange… be online in a line to get a document -.0

covid is making life hard again. I can't just stop in the middle of a research project because I can't access the robots anymore. *makes angry noises* I already canceled a human study because of covid, so this feels super unfair.

but you know what pisses me off even more? the govt complaining about numbers being high but not doing jackshit about active disinfection of air and public spaces (China did that, btw) or providing cheap disposable masks for people.

Also, I'm not as much afraid of getting covid as I am afraid of giving it to the head of the department who is a 70+ yrs old genius in his own right.
Fuck.
Fuck.
Fuck.

... This is shit.

“Dear Manager, the reason I didn’t complete my sprint task today was that while I was nursing my fiancé’s COVID vaccine severe side effects, said fiancé’s Chinese roommate put a jar of some fermented product called “Golden Smell” in a precarious place from which I broke it, causing a veritable golden shower of glass shards and odors to permeate the workspace. If you don’t hear from me by standup, tell my mom i’m sorry."

Had my first vaccine yesterday ... today I'm a train wreck ... I hope your day is better.

I'm so done with all the covid talk.
Its all that's ever talked about and you don't get a break.

As if it wasn't bad enough to have that one friend who constantly has to remind everyone how politically educated he is, and how much he hates the neo[whatever the fuck], now he has to remind everyone about his opinions on the vaccine.

No one fucking asked, shut the fuck up.
Your opinions do not matter.

So burnt out.
The worst sort of burn out is when your excited and you still wanna go but you can't seem to get your body to anymore.
Even on a forced break I seem to be thinking product.
I always thought it was so cool in movies where the coder is working there and sleeping there and eating there and chilling there.
Thanks to covid - I've first hand experienced this.
Oh and uh, I fuckin hate it.
I wanna go out.
I miss my coworking space with all the other idiots around me!
I miss eating out!
I miss going out for a beer!
Oh sweet beer how I miss the sweet breweries where I'd get fleeced for a pint!
Take my moniez! Pliz!
Just someone find a vaccine!
Ffs

German public service digitization. Websites celebrating the new "digital functionality" of the federal ID card, but if you need to prolong the actual card, you have to visit a public administration center in person, no way to prove your existing valid ID in a zoom meeting although that's de-facto standard accepted even when opening a bank account, plus they have all of my data so they should know I have a valid ID and they could just send the new one to my postal address.
So I have to appear in person at their offices, so I need an appointment, but in times of covid pandemic, appointments are rare and only offered on a day-to-day basis in my hometown, that's why I have to visit their online appointment web app at 7 a.m. in the morning to grab one of the few appointments when they are released.
Don't tempt me to write a script that squats all the other appointment slots to resell at the highest prices...

Situation reminds of the times when it was even harder to get a vaccination against covid, and the media kept reporting about the minority that refused to get vaxxed, so they didn't have to admit there wasn't enough vaccine anyway.

This rant is not about politics, it's about the failure of bureaucracy, but if it was about politics, I would just quote Rezo that it shows who had governed this state for sixteen years.

When I rant about German internet connectivity, people usually reply that the web is much better in Taipeh, Bangalore or Guadalajara, so I can still have some hope that it's not all of the world that's totally lost.

So give me some hope, folks.

Whelp I’m glad as hell I didn’t get the heart attack causing COVID vaccine

I don't know why, but I find making MEDICINES just as amazing as programming. We program computers & they program a human body or an animal body. AWESOME!

BTW, I really hope that the COVID-19 vaccine will soon be available for everyone.

i think 2022 is gonna be the worst year ever judging by the omnicron and i think there will be more covid varients, and they will be more dangerous. the vaccine could just not work in response to the variant and millions of people could die because of that.

it could be a good year, but i don't really agree with that. and judging by the past two years, it doesn't look so good because of what happened in the last two years.
(blm riots, covid, india running out of oxygen for its hospitals, january sixth, etc)

but maybe, just maybe its good, but i don't really know.

geez so one doc says it isn't multiple sclerosis and the other one says yes and his whole practice just keeps hinting drugs, ignores half my symptoms and questions after gaining my trust (again like the previous neuro), and keeps insisting on me signing a consent form to basically epi-pens that have to be personally delivered to my house every month due to "refrigeration" for the rest of my life and then tries to fear monger me and tells me the brain scars never fade

completely dismissed a lot of things that didn't fit his diagnosis and ofc when I mentioned oh wait the COVID vaccine made me numb that was the ONE and only time he heard me mention numbness and he didn't start nodding his head to it being multiple sclerosis. oh so my immune system can attack my nerves but it can never have anything to do with a product that is meant to increase your immunity, yet you want to inject me with immune destroying shit that will make me immunocompromised as a "cure"?

people are so disappointing

they have like 30 tests they did on me and all their results. and they took even more blood and didn't explain why. I was in there 2 hours going over all the events with the interim chick who seemed human but her boss doctor is not. guess I'm figuring out how to get all my test results, since I saw them for the first time in years on her fucking computer screen and I can actually use that data

this guy has the gall to keep telling me I was reading blogs when I mentioned I did research when the doctors kept dismissing me 3 years ago... and little snips like "supplements don't work" alongside shit like "let me prescribe you vitamin d" to which I was confused because he literally just asked me if I take vitamin d and I said I took some during the winter but stopped... so I clearly still have it. they sell them in bottles of 360 pills here come on. and he throws in "vitamin d is actually studied to be efficacious". yeah so is a lot of stuff I read about and tried and it did work. I had to actually fight him to just be allowed to use the vitamin d I already have at home ???

I only ended up in the hospital recently due to the trauma and not the nerve issues. cuz I could have emotions without shaking violently so all my emotions from the trauma undergone by his comrades and my friends abandoning me is just re-arranging itself through the 5 brain lesions now and my 2/10 death scale. these fear mongering hacks at least finally told me how many lesions and nicely decided to give me a "death scale" to upsell their drugs

so they wanna give you fake antibodies to kill your b cells so bam no immune system. ok why can't you just fix my b cells instead, re classify them? he's like making a face and I'm like "oh right sorry you probably spent your whole life trying to solve this" since he's literally the expert on multiple sclerosis in one of the most renouned universities in the world and got PhD beside his name... I don't wanna be insulting. then he looks disapprovingly at me and says "maybe in a decade or two". how much you wanna bet it's trivial?

I fucking want my fucking tests. they mentioned high igg (amongst themselves ofc, not to me). but not what igg it is. igg4 is tolerance igg... and COVID vaccine injured people all have high igg4. is it fucking igg4? does he even know how iggs work? his neurologist colleague said I had no antibodies for MS. so why do I have high igg if I have no antibodies for my own neurons?

these fucking hacks. I can't with this medical field.

and he has the gall to tell me to sign consent forums to get the meds now and tried this damnedest to fearmonger me. "this company" he points on the paper like that somehow matters. this is Canada why the shit would I give a shit which company it fucking is, all healthcare is free? even the fucking lead specialist in his field is just shilling for pharma. cure it or eat shit. claims lesions don't go away. oh you wanna bet? if you let me see my MRIs I'll find a way. guy totally ignored how that EEG helped me. in theory it shouldn't help anyone but it helped my nerves turn back on immensely. I mentioned it 4 times. are you not interested? are you not a PhD holder or just a prop? what a useless hack seriously

his interim was nice though. she heard me cry for 2 hours lmao. I apologized and she said it's fine and normal. apparently MS people have trauma a lot. well yeah you have your nerves scream a banshee scream and then everyone leave and insult you, all the while you can't think your way out of a paper bag and cease being able to walk randomly and all the other random nonsense

humans perpetuate to disgust me

Does "Education Technology" fall under "Education" for getting the Covid vaccine? Or do y'all think that is kind of stretching it?